Freshman Camp

Hiya people, how was ur weekend?

Well i spend mine over at Singapore Poly for the TKD freshman orientation camp. Camp started on Friday, 7pm. Training for that day was canceled. I was put in charge of the food. So in short im in the ration party. Expected number of participants was about 70 but it came to a disappointing 50 people. I was lucky that I was able to change the catering order from 70 to 50 or else, we will be wasting 20 packets of rice. So ya, only 50 turn up including the seniors and committee. 

The first day didnt do much, played some ice breaker games. I didnt join in though, was kinda down in the chumps. Heard that about 80% of those who went to the last grading got double promotion. But i was the unfortunate 20%. I know that it isnt such a big a deal but I was kinda looking forward to gettin double this time round. Wanna get that blue belt around my waist. Now im stuck with Sa Jang(Blue tip). Again that bloody pattern, first time IVP, second time Whompoa...... argh. If i dont get double the next time round, there is definately something wrong with me. Prepared supper. Was lookin at the freshmen reaction. Dunno if they mind eating bread and biscuits for the next few days for both breakfast and supper. Luckily nobody complain. After supper, hit the sack. Couldnt sleep, forgot my sleeping bag and it was bloody cold.

Woke up early the next morning to make breakfast. The bloody powerpoint not working. So there was a slight delay in making the milo. After breakfast was some small games then lunch then the tele matches. Din, Me, Yum, Sops and Adam played basketball one corner while the rest had their tele-matches. After a few rounds of ABC, Din, Me and Sops decided to take a nap before setting up for Dinner. Mif was havin too much fun to join us. So yeah we went to sleep. Woke up halfway to find Edmund out president asleep next to me. haha. So he also know how to "tuang" haha. Set up for dinner then after which was free time before their night walk. So i decided to use that short time to mingle around. Haven been doing that since the start of camp. Then came their night walk. Decided to join in. The freshmen were blindfolded so we had fun directing them. Asking them do stupid stuffs like to jump over a drain, which in fact there isnt any in front of them. But the most fun I had was with Hairol and Edmund. 1 of the freshie, Rahman. He's actually a nice guy lah, but typically crazy just like mif and us. So we had alot of fun with him. We did quite alot towards him than the rest. But it was fun. Rahman was a good sport so i guess he didnt mind. After the night walk, had supper then lights off.

Woke up the next morning to prepare breakfast again, then pack up to head down to NTC (National training centre) for the National exchange programme. The seniors had an invitation to spar with the national team. I would sign up for the challenge but i was underbelt plus national team only spar with Brown belt and above. Lastly I dont think im good enough to spar that level yet. Our seniors did ok despite, being trashed by the national team. Sir Vince, our coach was pretty impress with our performance. Had lunch then we break off from the centre. Head home with Din, Yum and Adam. Had a pit stop at Clementi to quench our thirst. Then took 99 home. 

So now here i am updating my weekend experience had fun lah..... gotta go now ciao

before i go, wanna share with u guys a picture of us taken with the national team at NTC. enjoy!!!

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Random thoughts

Juz when I thought life was starting to get better. Was suddenly reminded of a certain past, Injured myself again during training and im experiencing a strong sense of dejavu.
 
Been thinking, will I ever be good in Taekwondo? SP have been producing very good fighters. Well look at the seniors, if you need prove. Now with the new batches. Surely not all are good, maybe 1 or 2 blacksheeps will surely appear. At first, when I joined, I didnt really thought much bout the rest. I didnt have any friends. So naturally, I thought i was the best, among the newbies. Elmo was always picking on me and the rest were always commenting that my kick was powerful and such. So I was pretty confident of my abilities. After my first grading, my ego was greatly boosted when I learn that I got a double. People whom I had thought that would get, didnt and people whom I thought would not, got it. I was aiming for a 2nd double since then and have yet to achieve it. Some of my compatriots, had gotten their 2nd double, some even had their 3rd. I was starting to lose hope but I held on. Then came my greatest blow. My turning kick sucks. I couldn't even do a proper high turning kick. My groin muscle seem to be rather stiff. Maybe its all due to lack of stretching or warm up. But I have been doing extra stretching before the training, and why I still can't kick. Others hav long overtook me. Hairul, Zheng Kai, Jarrich even the girls are showing something. Now Im starting to think maybe Im not cut out to be among the best. Im having doubts about my abilities. Maybe Im more of an academic person rather than a sports kind of person. Maybe Im those nerd kinds whom all girls look down upon, wear those dorky glasses, either flabby or as thin "satay" stick kind or person. Never the popular, handsome type.
 
Heh, sure lots of negativity today. Nvm, dunno wat to type bout today so might as well ramble ramdomly.....
 
No matter how much I try, no matter what I do, I cant seem to get her out of my system.
 
"Met a girl Thought she was grand Fell in love Found out first hand Went well For a week or two Then it all came unglued In a trapped trip I can't grip Never thought I'd be the one who'd slip Then I started to realise I was living one big lie"
 
But i cant seem to forget...... 
 
"i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to health is pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase"
 
As much as i hate it, I miss her. But the thing is....
 
"She f***ing hates me Trust She f***ing hates me La, la, la, la I tried too hard And she tore my feelings Like I had none And ripped them away"
 
heh, more ramdom ramblings.....
 
Ok them came another blow,  met someone new. Well not new ah. An old long lost friend. Use to have a crush on her in primary school. She not the popular type whom every guys wants to date or even the type who every guys dislike, she was juz the average girl next door type. She's still attractive to me though after all this years. Not wanting to repeat old mistakes, I vow to myself never to reveal my true feelings. I don't have to tell how I feel, she will know and I will know, when the time comes.
 
The past 3 days, I was busy, and never came online. So 3 days I hadnt chat with her. Today, was hoping to chat with her. She was online, I was beginning to get happy, when I saw her nick. It was in malay but the translation goes like this.
 
"For the first time, the doors of my heart,  are being knocked by 3 guys. Haiz Dilemma"
 
Being myself, I pull myself together and said Hey, ask how is she and tried to lend a listening ear. She doesnt suspect a thing that I like her. Gave her a few advice and I can tell that she was very grateful towards me. Am happy for that. But as I've promise myself, I wont reveal my feelings. Let her figure it herself. I rather hurt myself than to hurt the ones I love. To think of it. She use to hate boys when she was in primary school. Use to scream and shout at the boys, Which included me of coz. Haha.
 
Ok lah enought rambling for today..... my finger are starting to get tired of typing. Will blog in..... um soon I hope....haha getting tired of blogging. haiz anyway, dont worry I wont stop blogging completely, coz this seems to be the only way I could express myself freely...... bye for now ...... ciao
 
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"Sometimes to do the right thing, we have to give up the things we want the most"

Am starting to feel go about myself again. A lot of good things are happening. Firstly let me just start by saying. SPIDERMAN 2 RULEZ!!!!!

Yeah finally it has came out, the long awaited sequal to the most anticipated comic superhero around. SPIDERMAN. And I get to watch it, not once, not twice but 3 times. Yeah some of you may say its a waste of money and such. But Its worth it, every single dollar and cent spent. Ok enough bout spiderman and lets talk bout other factors that has a positive impact on me. School has started and finally new additions to the malay dua of the class, Munir and Me. Muhammad, a repeat 3rd year student has joined us. That makes us the 3 Ms or rather the 3 musketeers. (Notice the 1st letter of our names starts with M. Hahha)

Next, the resurface of old friends. Ex primary school mates. Out of the blue, my old friends have somehow manage to track me down, thru Friendster. (Really appreciate the creator/s of friendster. Without them, this wouldnt have happen) The best part is, I use to have a crush on one of them, way back in primary school. So yeah. Its wonderful to see them again.

Today, I dunno what happen but when I woke up today, I felt different. I felt happier than usual. Was concentrating in class. In fact 1st time I didnt fall asleep in a lecture haha. Was smiling the whole day. Smiling that everyone I see, regardless I know them or not. Some even return the smile. So that really sets my day. Went jogging just now with Dad and my 3 sisters. After dinner, rest for awhile than around 10, we set out for our run. Lead them for the warm up. Dad desperately need to loose weight. Doctor's orders. Dad ans sisters start slow. I ran ahead. With my Muvo, and I time myself. Manage to clock roughly 12.33mins for 2.4km. Very bad. but slowly will work on it. Need to improve. I have Hafiz to motivate me. He clock 2.4 under 9.30mins. So if he can do it. I can also. But will do it slow and steady. Haiz ok lah gonna go shower than maybe gonna hit the sack. ciao and good nite....

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Nothing in particular

Its been awhile since I've blog in. Actually am kinda lazy to blog in. Well maybe when school reopens tml, there might be something interesting worth writing down. Well Nothing much happened during the hols. Went out with family and frens. Went for 2 camps. Specialist coz 1 and 2. Its been awhile since I've actually contributed anything to NCC. Always been busy with my other CCA, Taekwondo. Its not like im complaining or anything, Its just that Im getting tired of it actually. Just like the way Im feeling right now with this blog. But don't worry no matter how tired I am, I won't completely stop blogging, unless due to some unforseen circumstances. I figured maybe attending 1 or 2 camps wouldn't be so bad since Im not working or doing anything these hols. Plus its been awhile since I've don my No4 or No3. Feels good to be wearing it once again. Plus I need to brush up on my NCC skills. It was getting kinda rusty. During Phase 1, I was at a total lost. Although I didnt show it, but I learn fast. Its just a matter or recalling and remembering. Phase 2 was slightly better. Met up with old aquintances, like Roy, Sukhbir, Razali, Keith and Richard. Even made new friends, from the newer CLT batches and some from the older batches, like Kevin Po, "Mother", Hamza, Yazid and etc. The list would go on forever. After phase 2, was thinking when would be my 2nd NCC assignment? Didnt have to wait long, was asked to help out with the Singapore Youth Festival preparation. Was given the Gate 1 OIC post. 2 Junior Clts were under me plus 2 Guards men. Haha, can you believe it, Im in charge of 2 Guards men. The rehearsals were ok, went smoothly. But came the actually day, a few cock ups. We were actually short of man power(My Gate i mean was short or man power) My 2 Junior CLTs were gone so were the 2 Guards men. I know tat 1 or the clts had gone over to the carpark to fetch the contigents to the Gate. Aparently, the other clt whom I had told him to stand guard at the rear end of the gate had gone over to join his friend whom I had station at the carpark. I got screwed by Warrant Marthi, for letting outsiders into the Gate. So I com, thru the com set, to the carpark oic to recall my fellow clt, while I went around searching for the other guy(whom was with the carpark fellow) and the 2 Guards men whom had disappeared into thin air. Finally saw the 2 fellow Clts coming back together. Screwed the other fellow upside down. The whole of Gate 1 was looking at us. Who cares bout them anyway, I got screwed so now Im screwing his ass. Explain the situation to Warrant Marthi and manage to get another clt attach to me. Now 1 problem settled, next need to find the 2 Guards men. Finally found them sitting in a corner playing with their Gameboys. Boy was I pissed. Told them off(in a nice but firm way). Can see that they were unhappy with me but I was the Gate OIC and I gotta control my men. After that incident, everything went fine. The event was a success, even the weather was kind to us. Besides the slight drizzle, the weather was fine throughout. After the event went to have dinner with my parents, In my long 4 haha, everyone was staring at me. Met my secondary school teacher, Mr Thomas. It was a pleasent surprise. He was considered my "father" in school. He was my prefect master and I was kinda his favorite. He was even training me to be the Head prefect but I decline, since my grades were falling pretty bad. Come to think of it, It was a dumb move. Falling grades was a silly excuse. In fact the real reason was me. I wasn't confident enough to take up the challenge. Well was done is done, cant change the past only learn from my mistakes.
Well tonight's the night, Euro 2004 finals. Portugal Vs Greece. Its funny to think of it. They were the opening match and now they are the closing match. Don't know whom to support. All my favorites are out. Italy, Spain and Holland. Pretty disappointed with their performances. As for who will win, all I can say is may the best team wins.

Have you ever had any feelings like, You've just met this particular someone and you already like him/her. Well its happening to me all the time. Actually its not someone its someone, someone, someone and someone. All all 4 of them are not new friends but old ones whom I've started to take a liking upon. 2 of them were primary school friends. Whom recently had pop out of no where and added me in Friendster. 1 of them was kinda my ex girlfriend. Whom I only when steady for 1 day and she disappeared the next day for the last few months only to resurface a few days ago. The last only, I dunno maybe Its old feelings coming back. She's a secondary schoolmate of mine, whom fortunately end up in the same poly as me and for the past few days, I've been having rather intimate dreams about her. Maybe its just pure lust. But still, I fear that there's something wrong with me. Maybe Im a little psycho. Or maybe its just another phase im going through and will go away soon after. And also there's another girl. Well supposedly Im thru with her. But the more I hate the more I missed. So which is which, Do I hate her or do I miss her? Come to think of it, The first time I met herand got to know her, I thought, this is it. She is the one. But I guess its not meant to be. Or maybe somewhere down the line..... who knows, only God knows. Well in fact this applies to all those girls involve above. Maybe and maybe not we were meant to be. Maybe they are just a passing phase. Just a mere crush just because I've seen their nice side and not their ugly side. I think true love is when you really seen both sides of the person and you are still in love with them. I think thats true love. Well anyway, lets enjoy singlehood for now. More time to spend with my brothers and family. Am glad that I have a loving family and fantastic brothers. They are the ones whom will stick to me thru thick and thin. Too bad that Im a guy or that my brothers aint females, or I'll had gone out with 1 of them. Im not sounding gay am I? Haha nah just letting my feelings and thoughts out. Well my wrists are getting tired I guess I'll stop for now. Gd nite and take care my fellow readers. ciao

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