Olrite already Im updating. Sheesh......

Haha ignore the heading. Ok due to overwhelming response and numerous request, I will finally update my blog eventhough I've got nothing to write. I'll just write whatever comes to my mind, for the sake of my "fans".

Come to think of it. I didnt really think that anybody would ever read my blog. Use to make my blog so fancy so that whenever people come, they will be awe by it. Then to find out how many people would visit, I put up a counter. So far about 4 thousand people hav visit my blog. Minus a couple of hundred because It might hav been me visiting my own blog. I started blogging not long ago. Around year 1 I think. That would be in January 2004 I think. So it had been about a year of blogging. And a total of 4 thousand people had visit it.

Ok lets do a little mathematics. In a year there's 365 days. OK the last time I check the counter, It read 4440. Minus lets say about 440 times I enter my own blog. That leaves 4000. So to find the average number of people wisiting my blog each day, 4000 divide by 365 I would get, 10.96 people visiting my blog each day. Hmm 10 persons per day. not too bad ah. Considering there are still people willing to read it.

OK since i got nothing else to do. I try to attemp to guess who these 10 people are. ok here goes

1. First of all I think it would be Syahidin.
2. Then of all people I dunno why But i think its Liza
3. Then come my sister, Syazana
4. fourth would be Hafiz
5. might be Mif
6. might be zulhakim
7. might be Normah
8. might be my uncle all the way from london
9. others
10. others

Other would have meant blog hoppers. So I dunno if my list is correct. If I happen to be correct leave a message behind in my tagging I would like to know thank you.

Hmm at first i didnt think anybody would read about my life besides those whom I am close with, who I would like to share my life with and people whom I trust. Didnt know my life it that "important" to them. Haha. well you can say that they care for me. hahaha. As if. Well i really appreciate it guys for coming and reading about my life and of coz leaving messages behind. It really brightens the day knowing someone cares to read.

Ok before i start crapping again. I better stop.

P.S

To Liza, Din and Normah. Dont say I never update ah. Because of u 3 I update. haha

-blog out-

Juz for the fun of it....

Ten random things about me
10. Im a boring person why because basically there's nothing interesting about me.
09. Im a capricorn.
08. Mamma's boy, Its true I cant live without my mom.
07. Did I mention that Im lazy?
06. I suck in the malay language eventhough its my mother tongue.
05. I dream to make it big one day, who doesnt anyway.
04. Im a meat lover, steak, lamb chop, chicken chop u name it, i love it.
03. I rather stay home than go out, unless it gets really2 boring at home.
02. I am a very private person.
01. Oh ya Im also very shy, Im serious, put me with a girl and I go numb.

Nine ways to win my heart
09. Be yourself
08. A sweet smile.
07. Treat me with respect.
06. cook for me.
05. care for me.
04. Be a fren to me.
03. able to tolerate me.
02. able to mingle with my family members.
01. able to accept my friends.

Eight things I want to do before I die
08. Repent.
07. Travel the world.
06. Bungee jump.
05. Get married.
04. Have children.
03. Go for Haj.
02. to master any martial art.
01. enjoy life to the fullest.

Seven ways to annoy me
07. Be a bastard or a bitch.
06. Not being serious when I am.
05. Compare me with others.
04. show off.
03. trying to suck up to me/carry my balls (they ain't heavy by the way I'll manage).
02. immitate me.
01. merajuk(dunno the english term for it) easily.

Six things I believe in
06. God
05. Myself.
04. My Family and Friends.
03. With great power comes great responsibility.
02. Trust.
01. There's someone out there meant for me.

Five things I'm afraid of
05. God.
04. Not finding the "one".
03. Not able to live my dreams.
02. Watchin the malay community fall.
01. Not able to make my parent happy and proud.

Four of my favourite items in my room
04. My bed
03. My Computer (but alas, its spoilt. Gotta get it fixed soon)
02. My Spiderman comics
01. My TV.

Three things I do everyday
03. Sms, sms, sms
02. Eat, Eat, Eat
01. Sleep, sleep, sleep

Two things I want to do right now
02. Play my xbox
01. Call someone

One person I want to see right now
01. Juz someone.

19 years and counting....

"My presents this year"

• An Adidas t-shirt from Syarah, my cute lil sis
• Levis cap from my cousins
• 30 pounds from my aunt and uncle in london
• Adidas TKD shoes and Nokia 6230 from Mom
• FX creation wallet from Syaz and Meera me lovely sisters
• G-shock watch from my dad

Hey guys another year has passed and another year older. Hopefully this year would be a good year for me. OK first things first. I'm 19 years old now. 2 more years and I'm eligible to watch R21 shows ahahaha. Juz kidding. Almost coming to the end of my teenage years. Looking back at my yesteryears. All those fond memories. The process of growing up. Look through my photo albums. When I was a wee wee little baby boy (Kinda cute I must say), then my kindergarten days, The high flyer, always fighting for top 3 in class. Then came my primary school days. Honestly speaking my primary school days were my not say worst but my bad looking days. With those dorky glasses and "botak" head look. It was terrible i say oh and did I mention I was fat too. But at that time, I was still too young to worry about my looks anyway. Then in secondary school I started to make more attention to my appearence. Mainly for presentation and partly to attract the opposite sex (haha) and did I succeed? Well that's a different story. Then I graduated, now I'm in my polytechnic days. My oh my I did change a lot in terms of physically that is but deep down inside Im still the same shy little boy everyone knew and in terms of Mentally well lets say that was 1 of my major changes.

As they say the older you get the wiser you become and Its kinda true. Besides the knowledge part. I became more street smart, more understanding towards the world and people around me. Yesterday, had a conversation with my uncle whose all the way in london. Discuss about my life and he told me some secrets about his past. It seems we aren't that different afterall. Relate to him my current situation. He said something which actually gave me confidence. "It's their lost. Not yours(meaning me)" For all those relationships that I had lost, he made me realise that It wasn't my lost to lose the the girl but instead it was theirs for rejecting me. Not to say that Im boasting about myself( one of my new year resolutions this year is to remain humble) but lets face it. In our malay community there are not many guys with good qualities. What good qualities you may ask? well like, having very very close ties with their families, striving well in their studies, maintaining a good clean record, religous oriented and many more.

You don't see me smoke do you? A lot of my friends do but despite the constant peer pressure I still refrain myself from puffing away. Drugs? no way. Well maybe I was guilty of small stuffs like stealing, lying, scolding vulgarities but who doesnt? Everyone is bound to have lied once even saying the F word once in awhile. It's all part of growing up. This year my birthday wish is slightly different. No more have I concentrate only on myself but on the benefits of others. One of my wish was to see the the rise of the malay community. I hope in the future, I can see more malay holding high rankings in the army, air force, navy, police and everywhere. No more I wanna see malay kids, teenagers my age dropping out of school, committing undesirable acts and becoming the slums of the community. Aren't they ashame of themsleves? I dunno but I am ashame. Because it concerns me also. These kids i realise, aint stupid. They are actually quite smart but because of bad influnce and the lack of guidance from parents, they tend to flop.

I am thankful for having such great parents. It was and is the best present any child could ever get and I thank god for it. So this year looks like Im celebrating "alone" again. Not alone as in no one to celebrate with but "alone" in the sense that not havin a significant other. Maybe not this year. There is still next year. So yeah another year older and I still feel the same. haha.

Nah im making a point to change to a much more better me. oh yeah and I more other thing. I guess my love for her is ending now on the 13th of January 2005. take note of "January" coz that the title of the song Im gonna sing on my birthday....

Januari (GLEN)

Berat bebanku

Meninggalkanmu

Separuh nafas jiwaku

Sirna...

Bukan salahmu

Apa dayaku

Mungkin benar cinta sejati

Tak berpihak

Pada kita

Chorus:

Kasihku

Sampai disini kisah kita

Jangan tangisi keadaannya

Bukan karena kita berbeda

Dengarkan

Dengarkan lagu.....lagu ini

Melodi rintihan hati ini

Kisah kita berakhir di Januari

Selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku

Wow....pergilah

Thats all folks...... HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!!!!

-blog out-

Goodbye to you.....

Artist: Michelle Branch
Album: Broken Bracelet
Title: Goodbye To You

Of all the things i've believed in,
I just want to get it over with,
Tears form behind my eyes,
But i do not cry,
Counting the days that pass me by.

I've been searchin' deep down in my soul,
Words that i'm hearin' are starting to get old,
It feels like i'm starting all over again,
The last three years were just pretend,
And i say-

*goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to.

I still get lost in your eyes,
And it seems that i can't live a day without you,
Closing my eyes,And you chase my thoughts away,
To a place where i am blinded by the light,

But it's not right.

*goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to.

Hold on to...
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time,

I want what's yours and i want what's mine,
I want you,
And i'm not giving in this time.

*goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to-Goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to.

Oh, oh woah,
And when the stars fall i will lie awake,
You're my shooting star.

-blog out-

Betrayal

Oh man I feel so bad. Never had I imagine, I would fall for my bestfriend's girl. Well not exactly his girl. He likes her but she doesn't want a relationship. The thing is, I would never ever backstab a friend. It just so happen that I was left alone with her for 2-3hours and this happens!!!! Oh man. God help me. But I can't help it Im only human. It's just feelings right. Nothing more. But why am I feeling so guilty.

Was given a simple task of accompanying a friend till she go off for work but It turn out more like babysitting her. Watchin her sleep... NO NO NO NO. Dont even think about it.
Damn it. Stop it Syafiq.... It's not like you....

Somebody please help.....

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Singapore 4-1 Myanmar

Hey people juz got back from the national stadium. Went to watch the 2nd leg of the tiger cup semi-finals between Singapore and Myanmar. Set out early to meet up with Munir and friends to book a good seat. Was hoping for the weather to be dry but alas it rained the whole day. Was soaked to my bones. Upon reaching the stadium around 4 plus went to redeemed the free t-shirt (which was the same as the old t-shirt given during the Singapore Malaysia game) but i needed a change of clothing so die-die must redeem the t-shirt. Munir initially didnt wanna change but since the rest started to change including me, he too joined in. It was a good thing that we changed coz the moment we step in the stadium, some guy(propably the chairman of the Singapore die hard fanclub) Invited us to sit in the members area right next to the cheer leaders. haha. and next to the cheer leaders were the Myanmar fans.

With the ominous weather, even before the match started, I knew something bad is gonna happen. True enough. Myanmar and Singapore fans were verbally abusing each other, way before the match started. Even the presence of the police officers did not deter us. So in the pouring rain we sat while waiting for the match to begin. Soon my father joined me and my friends. The moment the match start, old memories start to flood my mind. Scenes of the old malaysia cup came floating by. My dad and I would be among the die hard fans cheering at the top of our lungs for the Singapore team. Today it was almost the same scence except that I've got friends to share the experience with. Its been awhile I've seen my father so excited. It was as if my dad were the same age as me. Cheering and jeering at the same time. The atmosphere was fantastic.

The 1st half didnt go too well as we went 2 goals down to Myanmar. The Myanmar fans were estatic and taunted us Singapore fans. We tried to calm ourselves down and prayed that the 2nd half would be better. True enough halfway thru the 2nd half, Noh Alam Shah scored and thus leveling us thru aggregate. Then things start to get ugly. Myanmar fans start to throw OUR LIONS T-SHIRT into the pitch. I dunno how they got them, maybe they redeem the t-shirts also. But yeah they started the throwing. Drinks started to fly, t-shirts, flags and anything that they could get their hands on. The police had a hard time calming them down. Some of them were arrested trying to pick a fight. Since we were sitting quite close, we get to see the scruffle 1st hand. But soon the matter dissolved and focus our concentration back towards the game. Then came the penalty kick. Again the Myanmar fans start throwin and jeering. Even the police weren't spared being thrown at. Saw 2 Myanmar fans jump into the pitch from the gallery, 1 drunk Myanmar fan tryin to cross over to our side and obviously tryin to pick a fight. We too weren't really innocent. We taunted them more. Daring them to come over and fight. Once again the police had to ease down the tension.

When 2 Myanmar player were given the marching orders were cheered. Indra step up to take the penalty. We were getting ready to celebrate, arms placed over each other shoulders. All were silent waiting for the ball to enter the back of the net. Then Indra MISSED!!!! We were crestfallen. The Myanmar fans cheered and taunted us. But we were at an advantage 11 players vs their 8. We went into extra-time. The goal fest started. We were cheering non-stop. Myanmar fans start to leave the stadium. We were singing "Goodbye songs" at the same time taunting them.

Then the bottle throwing incident happened. Even my dad was furious. Myanmar subsitute keeper Tun Tun Lin were given the marching orders. It was the 1st time in my life I've seen a player given the red card when he didnt even step into the pitch. The final whistle blew and we won 4 goals to 1. Thinking that everything was over, I was wrong. It was the beginning of a huge fight. Some idiotic "skinheads" started throwing things at the Myanmar fans. The Myanmar fans retaliate. Some fans from the opposite seats even came running towards our area. It was like watching an EPL or Italian serie A match. Where the fans turn rowdy. Umbrellas flew, rubbish bins threwn into the air and basically anything throwable were flung everywhere. Luckily we were spared. It was only between the Myanmar fans and the skinheads. We then heard a fight had started outside the east entrance so were decided to wait awhile before leaving. My father offered to give my friends a lift to the nearest MRT station. Once we were out and into the safety of my car. I drew a sign of relieve. It was pretty scary being in the middle of the action. Anything could have happened.

Dropped my friends at Aljuneid MRT then my father and I head down to Adam road hawker centre bought some food and head home to catch the repeat telecast. As if we hadnt had enough. haha. Had a lot of fun. despite the hustle and bustle. SO yeah we are into the finals. So when Singapore plays either Mayalsia or Indonesia at the National stadium, I'll be there to cheer the lions on.....

Got to go now ciao...

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Unexpected Bdae treat

Hello ppl. What a treat I had today. People whom I do not expect to remember my bdae remembers and even organize a treat for me. Well not for me only, but for all our friends whom were born in January. Went to East Coast beach for the party.

Rosne and Nadiah kinda organize the event. Initially I had tot it was a reunion for old friends(Thats what Rosne told me). But it turn out to be a bdae surprise. The January babys in ascending order of date Nuraini 3rd Jan, Zulhakim 9th Jan, Me(Syafiq) 13th Jan, Haafizz 14th Jan, Farhan 19th Jan and Kamal(Nuraini's BF) 21st or was it 24th Jan???
Anyway we had a good time despite the fact that it rained practically the whole day, were attacked by swarms of bees, eating wet caked and most backed out from the event. We make do with what we have. Played pool, played Dai dee and talked bout old & new times.

Left East coast ard 8-9 plus. While Zul and Fizz hav their bikes, Rosne's father picked her up, Farihin accompanied *ahem* and Nuraini went off wif her BF. I was left with Fidi and Rudy. Did a crazy thing. Took bus 30 from ECP all the way too Boon Lay. Reached home ard 2230hrs. Had a nice nap in the bus. Journey took more or less an hour. Parted ways with Fidi and Rudy.

So now here I am updating my blog. The ECP "bdae bash" pics hav already been put up. So juz click on the link and enjoy the pics. I guess thats about it for today ciao....

P.S

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

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