3-in-1

24 December 2005

Christmas eve. Went to the Bird park with my family. Didnt know the place was undergoing some renovation. But what the heck. I'm a 5 year old stuck in a 19 year old body. Went ballistic. Drove my sisters up the wall and enjoyed myself tremendously. What made the whole trip much more interesting was the heavy rain. So there we were cold, wet and hungry. We haven't had anything to consume since morning. So yeah blame it on poor planning and me for waking up pretty late. Thought that we could grab lunch at the park itself but as I mention before the place was under upgrading. Walk around in the rain. Was stuck in the Birds of paradise enclosure. SO basically we spent about half an hour staring at the B.O.P. Before that we at the Lori enclosure. It's one of the new attractions there. A nine story enclosure where thousands of loris were able to roam freely and for 2 dollars we are able to feed the loris. Some sweet liquid in a small plastic container. So yeah feed the loris. So now I know how those statues feel like with the pigeons perching all over you and mind you I was bitten by one cheeky lori. But untheless they were cute and aggressive. Fighting with each other to get to the the container. Considering I didn't had any prior experience with birds I guess I handled myself pretty well except that I was consistently concern about being "marked" by any of the birds. haha.

Went to Sakura for lunch/dinner. And boy were we hungry. Almost everyone had a 2nd round of rice. Here was what we ordered:
-Fried Baby squid
-hotplate beancurd
-Steamed seabass
-prawn fritters
-lemon chicken
-vermicelli with crabmeat
-baby kailan
-seafood tom yum
The food was nice. It must have been because we were famished and we licked each and every plate clean. hahaha. Walked around Ginza plaza for awhile then went to Jurong Point to search for school shoes for my sisters. World of sports having a 28% sale storewide and I was eyeing a blue adidas sweater. Front zipper plus the hood. So yeah my birthday's coming so If anybody's reading this *hint hint*

25 December 2005

Christmas Day. Didnt go out today. watched the tellie the whole day. Was at home alone with my 2 sisters. Syarah followed mum and dad to some weddings.The Sisters cooked lunch. Had rice with cornbeef and fried chicken. Watched Edward sicssorhand followed by Cheaper by the dozen , love actually and ended it with Khabie kushi Khabie Gham. Mum, dad and Syarah came home in between love actually. Edward sicssorhand was ok a classic movie. Cheaper by the dozen was funny, a nice family movie. Love actually was surprisingly good. A recommended movie to all those who likes love movies. Khabie kushi khabie Gham is very nice. It actually made all of us (mum, dad, sisters and me) cry. A very touching movie. I'm starting to have a little more appreciation for hindi movies. Although its a rather long movie plus the irritating long dance and song numbers, It has good values and good morals.

26 December 2005

Boxing day. Didnt go out today also. Dad cooked lunch. Been Hoon Hong Kong, his specialty. After lunch watched Seoul Raiders then went down to wash the car. Well part of being able to use the car I must be able to clean and maintain the car. Meera and Syarah helped a little. Wash the exterior and polished the interior. After washing took a step back and admire the car's new shine. Feeling satisfied and a little tired. Went back home and here I am updating my blog. Next week is my MST week. Mid semester exam week. Haven't hit the books yet. Will do tonight or tomorrow. Procastinating taking place here. After the MST and the icing of the cake, 7 January is my black belt grading. Hopefully I'll be prepared and able to go through with ease. Am feeling rather nervous after hearing stories from the black belts about the the testers being super fierce and the strict criterias to pass. Oh please god you helped me pass my driving test so now here I am begging and praying to you again to help me once again for my grading.

Now for the cherry on top of the icing is the week after the MST. It's my birthday. Dunno what I'm gonna get but here are my birthday wishes. Hopefully some good samaritan out there with deep pockets might make my wishes come true.(hahaha fat hope):

-A car of my own. Preferbly A Toyota Vios, Honda civic, Mitsubishi lancer or Subaru Impreza WRX. But smaller cars will do like the Honda Jazz and Honda Fit.

-Oakley shades. Razor wire pls

-The Sony Ericsson W800i walkman phone

-A new Creative MP3 player (Chameleon preferbly 512MB and above)

-A new computer for my room or a Laptop

-Sony PSP or the Gameboy Advance SP

-Xbox games (Ninja Gaiden Black, Fifa 06, Prince of persia: The 2 thrones)

-A sling bag e.g. Crumpler blue colour

-The blue, front zipper with hood Adidas sweater

-Adidas HSD 801 Vintage Watch (White colour)

-To get into a local or overseas university if the former didnt happen.

-For her to finally forgive me and be mine.

-Finally for my aunt, uncle and cousins to come back to Singapore permanently.

So yeah if you can make my wishes come true go ahead. If you can't well its the thought that counts right.

Well I'm signing off now. HAve a nice day and good bye

-blog out-

That's my goal by shayne Ward

Shayne Ward - Thats My Goal


You know where I've come from,
You know my story,
You know why Im standing here, tonight.

Please dont go, dont be in a hurry,
Im here to make it clear, make it right.
Well I know ive acted foolish, but I promise you, no more.
Ive finally found that something, worth reaching for.

I'm not here to say I'm sorry, I'm not here to lie to you.
I'm here to say I'm ready, that I've finally thought it through.
Im not here to let your love go, Im not giving up oh no.
I'm here to win your heart and soul. Thats my goal

Please dont go, you know that I need you.
I cant breath without you, live without you, be without you.
Well I no ive acted foolish but I promise you no more, no moore .

I'm not here to say I'm sorry, I'm not here to lie to you.
I'm here to say I'm ready, that I've finally thought it through.
Im not here to let your love go, Im not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul. Thats my goal

Well I wont stop believing that we will be leaving together.
So when I say I love u I mean it for ever and ever, ever and ever.

I'm not here to say I'm sorry, I'm not here to say I'm sorry, I'm not here to lie to you.
I'm here to say I'm ready, that I've finally thought it through.
Im not here to let your love go , Im not giving up oh nooo
I'm here to win your heart and soul.
Yes i'm here to win your heart and soul.
Thats my goal ! .

How do you prefer?

Hi guys Im bored got nothin to do. Actually I got nothing to blog also. No idea what to type here. But I kinda wonder can you guys do a little survey for me? Okay, I'll right down a description of a few girls out there and see who appeals to you the most and would pick as a bf or gf. As for the girls don't worry I'll right down a description of a few guys also. Type your results in my tag-board maybe after a few days or maybe 1 weeks I'll tabulate the results and post it up.

For the Guys:
Girl 1:
Normal friends. She knows you have a crush on her once.Rich daddy's girl. Killer body and looks. Can be a bitch at times.If you pick her be ready to be the envy of most guys out there but be careful she might flirt around too

Girl 2:
New friend. YOu fell in love with her instantly. Had a short fling but didnt work out. Smart, Average looking, simple girl. Can be very sarcastic at times.
If you pick her, you will have a bright and easy future. The only problem
is try not to get into a fight with her you will end up losing all the time

Girl 3:
Old friends so you know each other quite a bit. But lost contact for 4 years but met each other again so now keeping a steady friendship recently you kinda develop some feelings for her and kinda told her about it so she knows. Killer looks but not hottest body around and no she's not fat. Rather insecure needs a little self confidence boosting once in awhile. If you pick her well you can't keep cats as pets(she's cat-throsphobic hehe)and Guarenteed 100% long relationship...

Girl 4:
Cute and pretty face. but vertically challendge(haha) ok lah maybe a little on the short side. You met her thru a friend. In fact she's you bestfriend's bestfriend(haha). Had a short fling for awhile but didnt work out. tough girl also. Had lost contact with her quite a few times but each time you guys will somehow find each other again. Fate maybe?

Girl 5:
Young and carefree. Mix race(Chinese + malay). You just met her online. Just had a bad breakup. But she still misses her old stead. You act as her confidate. Somehow in between the lines you develop feelings for her, She doesn't know. Should you tell me? If you choose her then it means you'll tell her...

Now for the girls

Guy 1:
Athlete. Soccer player. Good looking. But dropped out of school. Known him for a long time. So how? want a hunk but not very educated?

Guy 2:
Not the best looking guy in the world. Average built but not a flat tummy. Smart. You and him are bestfriends. He kinda has feelings for you for a long time but didnt tell you about it. So would you date your bestfriend?

Guy 3:
Not the best looking guy in the world. Average built but not a flat tummy. Smart. Simple average guy. Typical next door kind of guy. But will do anything for you. Always lends you a helping hand or a listening ear. However he will kinda rush into things and will kinda expect much from you if you decided to go out with him. If you choose him expect full 100% devotion from him but he expects the same from you too.

Guy 4:
Almost the same as guy 3. In fact guy 3 and guy 4 are bestfriends haha. But guy 4 is much better looking. and doesn't really expect much from you except as long you're faithful.

Guy 5:
You and him are steadys for more than 10 years but its not a steady relationship. A lot of break and patch up situation in between. He flirts alot with other girls. At times he is like the most perfect guy you're ever met but at time can be the most ruthless guy you ever met. Parents know about him but can't do anything because you love him too much. But you start thinkin about your future. Its now or never will you stay with him or will you move on?

Well maybe some of the description may sound familiar to some of you out there. If somehow you feelin like Im talking about you and you don't like it then im sorry lah you feelin that way. Its my blog and I write wat I want. So sue me. haha....

OK lah I hope I can collect enough answers to give a proper result table. haiz kinda tired now wanna go sleep. ciao....

-blog out-

Falling by N'sync

Artist: N Sync
Album: Celebrity
Title: Falling


yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh
Hmmm

I don't know how
I don't know why
But girl it seems
You've touched my life
You're in my dreams
You're in my heart
I'm not myself
When we're apart

Something strange has come over me
A raging wind across my seas
And girl you know that your eyes are to blame
And what am i supposed to do (supposed to do)
If i can't get over you (get over you)
And come to find that you don't feel the same

'cause i'm falling, falling
Girl i'm falling for you
And i pray you're falling too
I've been falling, falling
Ever since the moment
I laid eyes on you

Falling, falling, falling
When i laid eyes on you
Falling, falling, falling
Yeah

I lose my step
I lose my ground
I lose myself
When you're around
I'm holding on
For my life
To keep from drowning
In your eyes, yeah


Girl what have you done to me
To make me fall so desperately
To think that i don't even know your name, no no
And how am i supposed to live (supposed to live)
If i can't get over this (get over this)
And you decide that you don't feel the same, yeah

'cause i'm falling, falling
Girl i'm falling for you
And i pray you're falling too
I've been falling, falling

Falling - will you stay or will you go
Heaven - heaven knows what my future holds
Questions - questions linger on my mind
Daybreak - from daybreak to dark of night
I'm falling - i don't know what's come over me

Can't you see that i'm falling, falling
Girl i'm falling for you
And i pray you're falling too,yeah yeah
Falling, falling (girl i'm falling)
Ever since the moment
I laid eyes on you
Oh...i'm falling

-blog out-

Kal ho naa ho

Just watched "Kal ho naa ho"(tomorrow may never come) just now. Even though I have the VCD never had the time to watch it. Dunno why tonight was an exception. My sisters apparently kept saying "Sit lah abang watch it. Its nice". One thing I dont really like watching hindi movies is the lengthy songs plus dances. Also some movies I cant help but shed a few tears. Its not like I wanna act macho or what. Hey I do cry sometimes. There's nothing wrong with crying. It shows that you're human and you have sympathy/emphathy. Feelings you know. Ok enough.

So yeah I kinda sat down and watch. Partly because I like Preity Zinta and also since my sisters ask me to watch it. Which I did not regret. Its a damn good movie. I think this might just become my 2nd fav hindi movie. First being "mohabbattein". Shed a few tears in between the movie. Crack a few jokes in between to kinda lighten the mood when it gets too sad. Dont wanna end up with a bunch of tissues in my hands and nose sniffing.

In the spur of the moment sent a few gd nite messages to a few friends out there. Then had a short conversation with a close friend about the movie. Kinda told her that I still had feelings for a certain someone but couldn't have the heart to tell her. My friend told me, she kinda used reverse psychology on me. I dunno if she realise it or not. But I finally realise something. What if tomorrow really never comes and if it does will I regret my decision today.

I dunno if you are reading this or not but hey I gotta say it. I still love you very very much. So much so that I dream about you very night. There isnt a night where I go to sleep without having a single thought about you. I will love you till my dying breath and beyond that. I dont care what others say or think. You only matter to me. I've tried erasing you from my life but everytime I see you again I fall in love all over again. I can't help it. Every day I pray that one day you'll be mine again. It may seem like rubbish here. Typing it all down. It may not hav any meaning to you but it does to me.
He may have you this lifetime but every lifetime, every birth after this you will be mine.

I have nothing else to say except I really do love you...

-blog out-

The next Singapore Idol

Haha You Go Girl!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jurongville Alumni Raya Outing

Hiya just got back from a tiring raya outing with my secondary school friends from Jurongville. Initially I was told about 30 gonna turn up. But only 19 did. Somehow down the line some communication breakdown I guess. So those who turn up are. Zulhakim and Wani, Zulhairey and Zul's sister, Haafizz and Najibah, Fidi and his GF, Farihin and Nadiah, Shazwani and her BF, Rudy and his GF, Rosne, Nurjiah, Hisham, Azrul and Alif.

Farihin had charted a bus for us. First house was my house and last was Zulhakim's. It was fun and I had almost forgot how much fun I had spending time with them. Kinda miss them a lot. To see a whole lot of them At once. Brings back old memories while in secondary schools. Zul and his jokes, Rudy for his wittiness, fizz for mr cool. Fidi the so called "Mat" of the group but in actually fact he's not, Farihin Mr bollywood, Azrul "Chong" and so on and so forth.

It may be a tiring night but its worth it all. Pretty tired so I guess this will be a rather short entry. Gd nite tml class starts at 10am hopefully i can wake up in time.

-blog out-

Thur, Fri, Sat

27 October 2005 (Thursday)

First up would like to wish a friend of mine, Mindy a happy birthday. With that done to the main events of the day. Dad took leave from today, tomorrow and the whole of next week. So went shopping for baju raya. This year told mum that I would rather play it simple. Jeans and polo T would be enough for me. Wouldn't want to spent loads of cash on nice looking shirts which I would only wear once or twice a year. At least with polo Ts I could use them to go to school. Didnt go far today just Jurong point. Bought a pair cargo pants and white polo T at Bossini and a pair of jeans at Giordano. Broke my fast at Banquet. Then shop a little while more then head home.

28 October 2005 (Friday)

Wake up, showered then drove dad and me to Assyakirin Mosque for Friday prayers. Getting used to the car already. One bad thing about this Mazda Premacy is that its bigger than the average car so It takes awhile for me to get use to the big dimensions. Its much harder to park and drive due to its length and weight. Luckily for me its automatic.

After friday prayers, drove down to Geylang with the family. Looked for my sisters' baju kurungs. Although its a Friday its still damn packed. Saw a lot of Mats and Minahs, tsk Such a waste. Anyway I tought I saw familiar face among the crowds today. Met her on the net, in hi5 to be exact. But we hardly talked/chat nowadays ah. She looks much prettier in person I might add. Didn't approached her. Was kinda shy plus my parents and her parents are around. So yeah admired her from afar. Wanted to break fast at Arnold's but again its crowded. Bought some food stuffs from the bazaar and broke our fast in the car. Then we head down to the old Rex theater for Hainanese Chicken rice at Cameron.

Head down to My uncle's place to picked up Nenek. She would be celebrating hari raya this year over at my place. So this year Its the first time we will be playing host. In fact both my grandmothers will be here this Hari raya. I hope my house can stand the load. haha.

This year the fasting month felt shorter than usual. 3 weeks pass by like nobody's business. Before I knew it Hari raya is next week. Had not really prepared for Hari raya. More like I've not yet gotten into the raya mood yet. I think this year hari raya will pass by as fast as the fasting month. Haiz another raya alone I guess. Haha. It's ok. There's still next year though.

29 October 2005 (Today)

Dad woke me up today, asked me to bring down the curtains and to change the cushion covers. Took a rather long shower. Little did I know a surprise is waiting for me on my bed. Wasn't wearin my glasses but I spotted the letter on the bed as soon I entered my room. Close and locked the door, draw the curtains close and still wrapped in my towel I ripped open the letter. And this was in it....



My pride and joy for this month. My driver's license and Mum handed over the extra keys to the car. So I guess officially the car is half mine now. Did my chores. and now here I am updating my blog. So I guess my morning started out great. I hope it last till the evening. I guess I'll blog later. Right now I gonna go admire my Driving license hehe....

-blog out-

Back again

Halu sorry for the 3 days absence. Hadn't got the time to blog. Anyway lets start off with last saturday.

22 October 2005 (Saturday)

Went out with the old crew. The usual bunch from Jurongville Secondary Zul, Fizz, Rudy, Rey, Fidi, Azrul and Sham. It's not the full group though. Farihin and Farhan couldn't make it I think. Fizz, Rudy and Fidi brought along their girlfriends.

Met up at Jurong East Entertainment outside McDonalds. Usually we would all go out by takin the trains and buses, but this year, Most of us have our license already. Sham drove while Zul, Fidi, Fizz and Rudy brought their bikes. As for me? well dad is using the car plus Its only been 2 days since I pass. Still don't have the confidence to drive alone yet. But hopefully come hari raya I would be able to drive alone.

So after everyone had arrived we head down to Geylang. The place was fully packed man. There was hardly any room to move. One of the reasons why I don't really like going down to Geylang.
Initially had wanted to break our fast at Arnold's but the que was too damn long. In the end we ate at Estella. Rudy wasn't feeling weel so he went home early. After dinner we sat for awhile, talked about old times and update each other about each other's lives. Then walked around geylang for awhile enjoying the sights and sounds. Soon it was time for us to bid our farewell. Sham sent me home. Thanks man. Anyway enjoyed myself and can't wait to meet up with them again this Hari raya....

23 October 2005 (Sunday)

Nothing much happened today. Drove down to My uncle's place to picked up the porridges. Then help dad distribute the porridges near my flat area. The response isn't that good. So I guess next year the Jawatankuasa won't be distributing porridges anymore.

That night broke my fast at Grandma's house and yes I drove the car. haha. Feels weird to see dad relaxing at the passenger seat and me in the driver's seat. haha. Anyway. Grandma cooked curry crabs. yum yum. Ape lagi aku lantak lah habis-habisan. haha sorry can't help it but Can't find the right expression in english. My england not that powderful you know. haha. only B3. Anyway its been awhile since I had crabs ah. So I dig in like there's no tomorrow.

24 October 2005 (Monday)

Nothing much. Went to school for FYP then go home break fast then sleep

25 October 2005 (Today)

Nothing much also. Went to school for FYP then go home. Had rice with Ayam masak lemak chili padi(Chicken cooked with chili padi gravy) Is that the correct translation? haha. nvm. After prayers help myself to a few of the kueh raya mom had finish baking. Im sorta her unofficial tester. Haha. So far she had made Suji and some kind of cheese cookie. Kueh Tart she said she will make last because if she make it early by the time hari raya comes it will be all gone. hehe guess who is the culprit *hint hint*, *hint hint*.

So now here I am updating my blog listening and downloading hari raya songs. Trying to get into the raya spirit. Only 8 more days left. haha anyway till next time ciao...

-blog out-

007 Has a license to kill. S8602021A has finally got a license to Drive...

Yes people, you read it right. I've finally got my Driving license. 19 October 2005 at 10.15 am. That was my TP date. Lets start off with what happen in the morning.

Slept early the night before, so I was pretty much awake during sahur. Didnt plan to sleep after sahur. Took my time to shower. Left home at 8am. Reached BBDC around 8.30am. My warm up was scheduled at 9.15am, So I was pretty much very early. Slack around in the pretty much empty BBDC. Listen to my MP3 player till it was almost time for the warm-up.

I was pretty tense during the warm up. I even strike down 1 pole during parking. But I told myself to relax and drive like I always do. After the warm up It was time for the real deal. Was waiting outside the briefing room when I met my Cuz, Kak Wati. Apparently she's here for her Final theory. (This is her 3rd attempt i think, cant remember what she said). Told her Im here for my TP and she was overly excited haha. Promise her that I will message her once Im done.

Then before I knew it, It was time. Was called into the briefing room for the balloting of the tester and test route. My name was the first to be called out Haha and I got test route 6. Teck Whye area. The good thing about this test route is there is no U-turn. There was another malay kakak(sister) in the room and she also got route number 6. Talk to her for awhile. Found out that this is her 3 attempt. Told her 3rd times a charm and hopefully she could pass this time round. Bid each other good luck and we are on our way. Of all the luck in the world, It started to rain heavily. Looking on the bright side, There won't be any testing of the emergency brake. Read a fast prayer and off I start the test.

I did pretty well this time except that the road was a little slippery so I kinda strike a kerb while trying to enter the S-course. Well 4 points already. Reassured myself and carried on driving. Manage to clear the circuit courses with ease. Next was the outside road. As mention above I was given Teck Whye area. Not much problem except that there was one time I gotten into the wrong lane. Almost missed the exit but manage to lane change in time, but 4 points added for lane changing abruptly. So far 8 points confirm. Was getting nervous. Calm myself down and told myself whatever happens, I did my best.

Return back to BBDC and again was lead into the briefing room for the debrief and results. Apparently the tester hadnt mark my test paper yet. It was pretty much untouch. So he mark it right there and then. The 8 marks confirm was there plus a few other minor mistakes like wide turning and such. Making a total of 16 points. Not the best but who cares I pass!!!! Watched a little video on road safety then paid for my license and finally I've become a Qualified Driver.

A lot of my friends and family members sms and called to find out how I had fared. Told them the good news and soon the news spread like wild fire. More messages of congratuations came. Haha to all those who sent me those messages THANK YOU... So now I can finally join ranks with those drivers on the road.

Watched out Singapore, A new driver has finally emerged...

Just got back from Jurong point. Had a mini celebration at Pizza hut. My family and me. Syarah was so exicted I dunno why. Like as if she was the one who got the license. haha. Am pretty full and content right now oh and not to mention extremely happy. Cant stop beaming since 10.15am this morning. Haha.

Anyways thats all for today. Thanks for reading. Dear readers and in case you're wondering. Yes I would gladly give you a ride If you ask me nicely. hehe. Gd nite...

-blog out-

Monday, Monday, Monday

Halu its the starting of a new week and Im getting excited. Can't sleep at night. TP is getting nearer and also this Saturday going out with my secondary school friends. Its been awhile man. Hadn't really seen any oh them since god knows when. Only communicate thru MSN or smses. I wonder how they are doing. I guess I'll know this saturday. Most of them either riding or driving there I heard. Wah power. I guess I'll be the only one without a Car. haha nevermind I think by Hari Raya I would be driving already. Anyway thats my aim to get my license before Hari Raya. It's about time I take over the driving from my dad. Either that or I'm backup driver.

Grandma and Mum pretty excited. Oh boy I guess its "Boy!!!! boleh drive Nyayi/Mama gi pasar" Haha. Then my sis, Syaz also. During buka today she told me her plan. That I would drive her to school. Then I will pick her up also. She even goes into detail like, She will stand at the main gate waiting. I will come zooming in. Come out and open her door for her. AS IF..... Haha my sis and her wild imaginations. About sending and fetching her home I've got nothing against it. But opening the door for her? Yeah right.

Didnt do much today. Practically slept the whole day (lazy pig). Help mum buy some groceries. Then entertain Syarah for a while. She's kinda taking up Comedy nowadays. She would read my joke book and then she would try impress my family and me. Except that I've read that joke book like a million times. 90% of the time I could answer her and she would be so impress on how I know most of the answers. BUt the cute thing is she would try and try to find a joke which I would not know. Thus the 10%. Then she would be beaming to herself. Kinda like a self satisfaction that she finally beat me. Haha. But most of the time she would give up on the book and make up a joke of her own. Haha. Nonsensical ones complete with nonsensical answers.

Kids can be so innocent at times. After Buka, played Ninja Gaiden(complete it again) and Xmen legends(complete it again also). Getting bored with the games I have at home. Need new games except that I have no money now. Spent it all on my driving. Blame the TP test. So expensive. Plus later If I were to pass I still need to pay $50 for the Card. Everything also need to pay. Have expected that the card would be free. Kinda like a prize for passing the test. But no still need to pay.

The other day had a little joke with one of my old friends. Imagine drivers would pass out like soldiers. Top student becomes the Parade commander. All the cars form up in platoon level. Imagine National Day parade except instead od soldiers, Imagine cars. haha. Then the marching out or rather Driving out. Haha and the pandang ke kanan. Imagine the cars driving on the 2 right wheels with the 2 left wheels in the air. Haha nonsensical.

Ok lah before I began any other Nonsensical comments. I better stop now. Till later Gd nite...

-blog out-

A typical friday

Another typical Friday. Nothing interesting today. Woke up for sahur after Subuh went back to sleep. Went for friday prayers with dad. Oh yeah Dad's feeling much better today. Had nice time talking in the car. Then spent the whole day either glued to my xbox or the tellie. Break fast then blah blah blah.......

haha pretty boring huh. Well maybe you guys might wanna check out this website. www.stupidvideos.com Pretty hilarious. Stupid people doing stupid things. Confirm to tickle your funny bone. If not then sue me. ( Nah kidding. Seriously don't sue me ).

So yeah. Thats pretty much what happened today. Hopefully tomorrow proves to be more exciting. Or I'll probably rot....

-blog out-

13 October 2005

First up I would like to wish my TKD brother Syahidin a happy 19th Brithday. Well bro Its the last of the teenage years. Enjoy while it last. Coz we only become teenagers once.

In today's news.....

Almost woke up late for his driving lesson. Fortunately the MRT and the bus seem to be travelling faster than they use to. Either that or time had suddenly slowed down. Today's driving performance was better than usual. Maybe because of this particular Instructor. The first time I met was was way back during my 2nd lesson. I was newbie, but he instructed me like as if I had been driving all my life. Ok maybe that was a little exaggerating. So driving back then was like every 10mins I would stall at least twice. After that lesson, I would always pray I wouldn't have to see him again. But unfortunately he was in fixed instructor group I was assigned to. So cannot escape. Met him a couple of lessons after that. But Everytime I'm with him I tend to perform badly. I dunno why. Maybe he's jinx or its my mentality.

Either way today saw his name on my reporting slip and my heart when "OH NO" but I kept myself cool. Turn up the volume on my mp3 player and try to relax. Craig David's I don't love you no more was playing. Humm to the tune and I coax myself to perform today. Hey my TP just around the corner and I can't afford to blow this revision off. So yeah surprisingly I did perform today and the instructor was particularly nice also. Maybe he was happy to see me inprove. haha. He even ask me to sms him my TP results. I think underneath that fierce face he cares awwwww. haha enough about my driving.

Next. Dad went for an operation today. Apparently, he hasn't been too well for the past few weeks. Found some stones in him kidney. Due to the waste materials in the urine not completely dissolving, so they crystalize. Depending on the size it can either pass out of the kidney or get lodged in the tude which carries the urine from the kidney to the bladder and cause severe pain in the lower back and radiates to the side or groin.
Kinda feel sorry for him, seeing him in this state. Couldn't sleep, sit or even stand properly. I wish I could do something what what can I do? At most I could do is pray. So yeah after my driving sms mum to ask about dad's op. It seems the op was successfull. Thank God.

Reached home to find him watching tv but still feeling a little pain from the op. Left him alone to rest. Syaz brought her friend home again. Its not like I mind though. Am used to it already. We treat her like another part of the family.

Went to Jurong point to buy food for buka coz mum lazy wanna cook. Bought chicken rice for the family while I and Meera had noodle. After dinner watch "A Goofy movie" with Syarah, then played X-men legends for a while and now here I am updating my blog.

Another day gone, a brand new day begins. Till next time. ciao

-blog out-

The hits and misses for the day

You know one good thing about this fasting month is that people don't get angry easily. I know because I choose not to blow my top today. They say that the fasting month is a holy month where satan and his minions get tied up and we humans are free of his evil whisperings. So you might guess since there are no devils there are no sins. Nope wrong. You forget that we are humans and humans are prone to error. Each and everyone of us have urges and needs. So even without the devil's help we can submit to our needs/urges/desires. So be mindful. I don't mean that you have to fully devote yourself to god or pray 24hrs a day or lock yourself in your room refuse to watch tv or even listen to the radio scared that they might corrupt your mind. All I'm saying is that be careful of what you do and say. Be yourself, be mindful and hopefully god is there watching over you.

Ok enough of mumbo-jumbo. Here's what happen today. Woke up around 11 as usual. Rush down to school only to find out that there is No FYP today. Apparently yesterday my group mates have already sent the PCB board out for fabrication so It will propably take about 1 week to finish. At the mean time we are free. So I walk into the project room saw my TSO and ask eh where are my group mates? Surprise surprise they are at home and here I am in school AND NOBODY BOTHERED TO TELL ME. Oh and you ask where I was yesterday? I was having my driving lessons at BBDC and I have inform them days ago, so they knew I was not coming.

So ok lets just say that my groupmates are I really on good terms right now. Basically Its my fault. Always turning up late for the project work. Saying I don't do my job leaving them to do all the work. Ok ok I admit I was in the wrong. But I did do my part. To tell you the truth, If It weren't for me the PCB wouldn't be ready for fabrication so soon. The way they were doing the work it would have taken ages. It might sound biase as this is my point of view but I feel like they lack, I dunno how to put it um hands-on-experience-work? They do thinks without really thinking. They don't dare to take risk and they are the kind who follow the book kind of person. Really-really follow the book I mean. To them there is only one way of doing things and that is to follow the book. They say its group work. So everyone has to contribute. I gave them suggestions on how to approach a certain task. But they say "No cannot" "Cannot do like that". I'm getting sick and tired of being left out and not taken seriously. All this while I've endured all their craps and insults. But I just kept quiet. I know that they are just joking around. But still ARGH I dunno how many times I have written it down here.

Breath Syafiq Breath...

Ok where was I. Oh yes. So you didnt inform me that there was no fyp today. Fine thats alright with me. I'll brush it aside. I assume you had forgotten. The other day you were saying that we had been friends for a long time and a little argument between friends is rather stupid and we should kiss and make up. Sure I will. I forgive you for this little joke of not informing me. I bet you are at home laughing you ass out when you found out I was in school. Ok sure fine. Do whatever you want. Make fun of me. I don't care. Im getting immune to your craps already.

haiz. So readers, everytime you read my blog you get to know a little more about me and whats happening in my life. Kinda pathetic isn't it. Well what to do. That's my life. You know now would be a good time to have a girlfriend. Someone whom I could talk to and share my pain. But I ain't that fortunate haha. So who do I talk to went Im alone. Well usually I'll just talk to myself. They are so many voices in my head that its getting pretty noisy up there. Maybe Im going insane. Nah wont happen. There I go talking crap again. better stop now or I'll start crapping up again.....

"Help take me drunk, Im home"

-blog out-

Syafiq's Return

Hi guys. Due to the overwhelming response, I've decided to start blogging again. A lot has happen during this long absence. The last I worte was about Operation: facelift, which has long been accomplished. It didn't really turn out as I had initially planned but It turn out better I might say. Currently there is no bed. So im basically sleeping on 2 mattresses. Which I don't really mind. Cleaned out my wadrobe and threw out 3 trash bags full of clothes. Well not exactly throw we sold them to the Karang Guni. So now my cupboard looks so empty. Which is good. It means I can buy new clothes. Been eyeing an Adidas t-shirt, an adidas sweater and adidas pants. Haha well you can say that I'm kinda Adidas oriented, Can't get enough of those 3 stripes.

Next on my to do list is to update my Spiderman comic collection which I already have. Now waiting for the next issue to be pubished.

Next is driving. Well almost done. Lets just say my TP is just around the corner. Nope I ain't gonna say when. Its gonna be a surprise. Will let you know the results when the time comes. At the mean time just check for updates.

Having fun? well yes and no. My friends and I have found a new hot spot. X-square near Plaza Singapura. Its like playing Lan games except with X-box. We mostly play Halo 2. Since Its one of the few games which offers system link.

Just had my exams a few weeks ago. Hopefully I can pass. Starting to have doubts whether I can go to university. It's so hard nowadays. At the rate I'm going I may have to rely on my cca points or become like those special cases. Well whatever it is, I pray I make it thru.

Now another problem. FYP. A bigger headache. Suppose to have my holidays now but instead the 3rd year students have to come back for Final Year Projects from 8 to 5. It sucks I know. But what can I do. Its part of the criteria to pass this module.

The fasting month is here again(Hurray) which means in a Months time Its Hari Raya again( Double Hurray). Haha it may seem childish but I can't wait for Hari raya. The food, meeting friends and relatives, not to mention the Green packets. Haha I'm getting old for green packets but seriously, If given I take am not holding back. There I go all money minded. Haiz I wish I were a few years younger.

Well its almost 1am gotta go hit the sack. Need to wake up for sahur then later still need to go for FYP. Haiz life of a 19 year old, what can be more exciting? haha gotta run ciao....

-blog out-

Operation: Facelift

Olrite, the hols are offically here and I have about 1 and a half months to enjoy. OK here are the things I wish to achieve or do during the hols.

1) Clean up plus give my room a facelift
2) Continue my driving lessons
3) Update my Ultimate Spiderman comic collection
4) Have fun, fun, fun

Well today dad woke me up at about 11 plus. Which I kinda brush aside and went back to sleep, Only to be waken up again a few minutes later. Haha. Drag my lazy ass to the toilet, had breakfast then Seeing that I got nothing to do after that, I decided to start doing my holiday project 1 ( Operation: Facelift ). That is to revamp my room. To most people it may seem like a chore actually being my lazy self I kinda hate cleaning up my room. But the idea of redecorating my room without my parents interferring sounds rather intriguing. Basically I can throw and add anything I want to my liking and taste without my parents objecting. Well maybe mum has to approve a little. Damn she's always like that. Nvm. Dad in the other hand is giving his fullest support. He even gave a few suggestion on how to decorate. Except that I dont really like his ideas. Haha sorry dad

Hmm. Time to test my interrior decorating skills. I wonder if it will turn out nice. At the mean time I have to get rid of my bed and the computer table. Thinking of getting a sofa bed so I can have more space considering that my room is rather small. Plus I want to shift the x-box into my room. So if I friends were to come over they will hav space to sit around, with my bed turn into a sofa. As for my computer well I have an unused corner computer table courtesy of my aunt from her old house. I will use that. After clearing the room I have to mop the floor, clean the walls of cobwebs and not to mention the peeling off paints. That reminds me, gotta get dad to buy some paint.

Thinking of going down to Ikea and getting the "Ivar" set. So I can construct my tv area and some shelves. Gotta buy a mirror, more shelves and yes most importantly a new tv. Read in the newspaper somewhere they are willing to buy trade in old televisions for new ones. And the good thing is, the old tv doesnt have to be in working condition but must be free of dust. So yeah clean up the old dusty non-working television that is sitting rotting in my room. Time to get rid of ya.

Dad was telling me the other day that he want to buy an "Arowana" and place it in the outside tank. So that means the existing fishes outside hav to be transfered to my room. Not that im against it. But Its kinda "leceh" (troublesome) to transfer the fish and all. But well it the spirit of beautifying might as well.

Syarah helped a bit today in cleaning my room but she seems to be making more mess than cleaning haha. Then came the time I ask her to put the rubbish at the main door, but she never return. Went out to find her and there she was sitting comfortably on the sofa eating popcorn watching Spiderman. haha typical Syarah.

Stop for awhile for dinner. Went to Clementi ave 4 and had Chicken Cutlet. After which we went home and I continue to clean up the rest of my room. Had just stop. Mum asked me too as she's scared the neighbours will complain about the vacuuming. Just had a shower and now im sitting in front of the comp updating my blog at the same time chatting with my aunt.

Well i guess thats all I have to say for now. Till next time cheerio.

-syafiq out-

The exams are over and finally going into my 3rd year of poly life

Yahooooooo....... exams are officially over. Sorry about the very loooooong absence. Been busy studying (As if, hahaha). NO seriously I did study. Another factor for my long absence is well I found a new love. Yes I found a new love. Well she's perfect for me I tell you. She's always there for me whenever im down. Always cheer me up. She's lots of fun to be with. Few of my friends have met her and well they love her too.

The most important thing is my parents don't mind me spending lots of time with her. Well maybe there were some quarrels about my late nights with her. But my parents don't really mind. My sisters well they like her too. But I haven't been in contact with her for the past few days. Mainly because of the exams sorry hon. I'll make it up to you these hols.

Well I guess you readers are itching to find out who this mystery gal is right? haha wait till the end of this entry an I'll tell you.

Today was my last paper which was Logic design. The paper wasn't really that tough. But It wasn't really that easy. Calculated the marks and found out I might approximately get about 50 plus on the paper which is more than enough for me to pass the module. Well actually, I have already passed the module considering that I pass my MST (around 67%) and my class test and PBIL were high scoring. So im pretty confident with this module. Am hoping to get an A for this module but am not so sure now at most I might get a B. But who knows lets just hope for the best.

After the paper, went to play street soccer with Munir with his gang and Muhammad and his gang. So there was about 15 people playing. Played 4 aside then figure It wouldn't hurt to add 1 more player each. Which increases the pace of the game incrediblely. Not to mention the basketball court was rather small to house 10 players. So short passes was the key. The others found their place soon enough. I in the other hand handed touch a soccer ball since year 1. So Its been a year since I played soccer. I thought I was a sure gonner. Didnt even get to touch the ball in my first game.

My second game was slightly better even got to try a shot at goal but the defender got to it. Now my 3rd game, finally I've found my pace. Manage to win balls, even got a goal. The winning goal in fact. Shot the ball in between the defender's legs (OLE!!!). My fourth and final game almost scored but was again denied by the defender. Nearly forgotten how great the feeling of playing soccer. After the game I kinda felt happy. Like as if all the weight on my shoulders had been lifted off by an unseen force. Exams over, had a great time playing street soccer plus I scored and had a satisfying dinner. What could I ask for more? hahaha

After dinner at our favorite haunt, clementi. I head home feeling very satisfied and full. Parents and sisters out having dinner. Mom lazy to cook today haha. So I was alone at home watching Smallville. I wonder by right, Clark should meet Lois when he works at the "daily planet" later when he's an adult. But in smallville, he met her now while still in high school. I wonder if any of you watching today's episode noticed the date written on Chloe's tombstone? It wrote 1987 - 2004. So that means Chloe is 17 years old and If Chloe is 17 that means Clark, Lana, Lois and Pete should be around the same age. Funny, but they dont age that age. They looked and act older. Maybe the producers should review the cast or the script to fit the their age. Not that its not good but maybe I will look more realistic. But Smallville fans wouldnt mind right. hahaha.

Lana's back from Paris and she looks as fabulous as ever if not better. Chloe's back too. Plus we have a new hottie in the house. Lois lane. In terms of looks, Lana still wins hands down. But Lois has a better figure than Lana I must say. Chloe? well sweet Chloe will always be um sweet. Well she has a nice smile lah. I'll give her that.

Well here I am nothing to do updating my blog and making my readers wait to find out who or what is my mystery love is? Well If you were patience enough to read my blog I thank you but If you just happen to scroll down here and skip reading about my day shame on you. Haha but who could blame you? You busy-body.

Ok my mystery love is.........drum roll please.....................................
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My x-box game console (hehehehehehehhehehe)
My one and lovely x-box.
I've waited 19 years to receive a game console.
Been asking for a game console since god knows when.
And now that I've receive one, Im gonna love and care for it with all my heart.
Until of course I finally found my one only true love. Hmm I really wonder when?

olrite I hope you werent angry or surprise with my answer ahahaha
sorry IM feeling a little crazy today.
But seriously I love my x-box console.

Thank you for reading my blog and am signing out

-Syafiq out-

The good guy always losses in the end

Heh hello people. Sorry for the long absence. Getting lazy to update. haha

What do you guys think of my heading? It the movies of coz the good guys always win in the end. But in real life that is not always the case. Well the thing is, this is how i feel right now. Being the good guy all and all. I help my friends, give them advices, In short I try to be good ah. But in the end I dont really feel happy. I dunno. Should I? Maybe I should. I mean I did help someone become happy. So I should be right? But why dont I get to feel the satisfaction?

Maybe Its not the right time. Maybe God is collecting all good deeds and saving my rewards for a later time. Maybe God is trying to teach me patience. Maybe God..........

I dunno its all up to god to decide. I just hope that 1 day, I'll get my happiness....

-blog out-

Inter Varsity Polytechnic games

Heya people, juz got back from NTU for the Taekwondo IVP games. Before I start I would like to thank all those who supported me. Exspecially My mom, dad and sisters you guys spur me on. To Sir Din thank you for coaching me and last but not least to the SPTKDC thank you for everything.

OK to the more detailed part. I've got bad, good and fantastic news. The bad news first, I got disqualified in my 2nd match for kicking my opponent in the face. Well tough luck. Anyway I should have won that match. He kicked my face too but he got away with a minus half point( Kiong-Go). I in the other hand wasnt that lucky.

Anyway the good news is I got BRONZE. which is much better than leaving with nothing at all. If I hadnt been disqualified I might have gone on and win either Silver or Gold.

Next the fantatic news. My 1st match I actually won with a superb score of 13-0 with the exception of having 3 kiong go. But still I actually TKO(tactical knock out) my opponent. My very first IVP sparring, my very first bout, my very first victory. What a way to bring up my confidence. Before my match I was literally shaking. My legs felt like jelly, my heart was pounding so hard it felt like jumping out of my mouth, my stomach was so full of butterflies that I couldnt eat my lunch. Which in the end I only ate 3/4 of it.

Next my injuries. Argh..... got a swollen right middle finger. Bruises on both my shins, right hand, both arms, both feet, aiyah in fact almost my whole body injured. Including my right eye where the guy kicked my face.

Anyway no use whining now. Its too bad that I got disqualified. Next time maybe. But none the less happy that I get to bring home a medal.

Aiight my off to eat my burger. Ciao....

-blog out-

I guess the rumours were true....

Lets just say that I have a knack for putting 2 and 2 together. I'll solve it in the end, its only a matter of time. But this time I wasn't all out to solve it. I didnt even want to know the truth. In fact I tried not to think of it. I knew the answer way before it's only that I didnt want to believe in it. I prayed hoping that its wrong. I even gave myself a false answer. Yes I was in denial. I admit it. Even my best friend tried to tell me. I guess he said the answer without realising it. Sorry man for not believing in you. I knew deep inside you were right. I just cant accept the fact. Someone once told me the "truth hurts" yes it sure does. Even more than getting your butt kick in Taekwondo.

Clues were everywhere. Its either I ignore them or I didnt know about it. This give/curse, has helped me alot. But however today, It serves a different purpose. Sometimes its best not to know the truth, Most of the time its the only solution. As the saying goes, "You can't hide the truth forever".

Its been a hectic week for me. A string of bad luck. Step on a piece of glass, got scolded on the phone by a friend's mother for something I have not done( ma'am its not my problem that your son mix with bad company. He's your responsibility. Vent your anger at someone else like YOURSELF for instance), Friends not trusting each other, Being ignored, teased, humiliated each and every day. I know that you did it for fun. But there's a limit to each and everyone. I have pride too you know. I have been nothing but a best friend to you. If it weren't for me, you would have been the only malay boy in class. I treated you as a brother and you toss me aside numerous times. I know that you are a straight A's student and im the borderline case. I ask for help but you seem reluctant to help. Instead you just threw my paper aside. Hey comeon man If i dont pull thru this year. You can find someone else to do your final project with man.

This year, I gave valentine's day a miss. Partly because I have no one to celebrate it with. Partly because I can't be bothered with buying presents and in the end you didnt get the girl. Partly because Im broke and partly because I was having a bad week. Plus V.day has lots of memories for me.

That's it cant think of anything to write anymore.

1. Cant think
2. Cant be bothered
3. Wanna watch TV
4. Bloody tired
5. Fed up with myself
6. The truth hurts
7. all of the above

Good bye

-blog out-

Sunburn Agrh!!!!!!!!

Firstly I would like to wish all my chinese friends a Happy Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Cai. Hong Bao Na lai.... hahaha

Ok to today's event. Went for a family picnic with my cousins and their families at East Coast. It was damn crowded. Tents were literally pitch up right next to each other. Couldnt find a suitable spot near carpark D1 where we usually go because the toilet was near. In the end we end up almost at the end of East Coast at Carpark G. We were lucky that the area wasn't that pack but the bad part was it was quite a distance to the toilet. But we can't have too much of a good thing right. Quickly pitch our tent and ate lunch. Was damn hungry. Then off to the sea with my sisters and cousin. Had a lot of fun. Its been awhile I went swimming. Had so much fun that I didnt even put on any sunblock and the price to pay, SUNBURN all over my face. Its aching alot now. Juz applied some face cream and the pain subside a bit.

Stayed at East Coast till about 5 plus then head down to Changi Airport to juz walk around. My cousin, sisters and Me pretended to be passengers waiting for our flight. It was damn funny. Even my Mum and aunts can't resist in joining the fun. My dad and uncles juz relax one corner haha. After about 2 hours of touring the airport, we parted ways. My family and I headed to West Coast for dinner. Had beef horfun. Most of the stalls were close except for those man by the malays and indians. Not to mention the foodcourt was damn packed. So the stall vendors were rushing about. There we in such a hurry that the indian guy who serve us our noodles was trembling. I mean his hands were trembling when he handed our food. He even dropped the plate of green chilli my mother requested. After that small incident, before he could place our noodles on the table my dad and I reached out to grab the plate from his hands. Haha I guess my dad was thinking the exact same thing as I am.

After dinner we headed back home. Took a cold shower and now here I am updating my blog. My face starting to hurt again. OUCH... Well looks like im not the only one, my sisters are also suffering the same fate as I am. Syarah looks so cute. She has very fair skin plus she's chubby add those red sunburn marks on her face and u get those rosy-rosy chubby cheeks which u can't resist to pinch. hahahhaha.

I guess thats all I have to say about today. Once again Happy Chinese New Year.... bye

-blog out-

Fortune, Fame. Mirror vain. Gone Insane, But THE MEMORY REMAINS

Yesterday had quite a nice time. It was Normah's bdae. Hairul organize a surprise bdae party for her, kinda sweet of him, at East Coast. I was told to bring the the paper plates, cups and utensils. Plus I had to be there early to book a place. Initially I thought that I would be there alone like an idiot looking for a place. But somehow god must be smiling down at me.

Hairul wanted me to invite Liz to the party. To be honest I didn't think she would wanna go but since Normah's her niece, I juz ask her along. Haha to my surprise she agreed. Wanted to ask her if we could go together to the party but I held that thought. Maybe she might want to bring along her boyfriend. But to my surprise well she ask me to go with her to the party. Well I was filled with mix feelings. I do still harbour some feelings for her but she's taken so she's forbidden fruit.

Met up with her at City Hall and did a little scouting for Normah's present. I actually had wanted to go to parkway to look for the present since it was near to East Coast, but Since Im meeting her at City Hall might as well head down to City link mall. It was a good thing that we went to City Link mall or else we might bump into Hairul and Normah at Parkway then it would spoil all the fun. haha. So there we were two empty headed people without a single idea in the world what to buy for the birthday girl. Message Hairul for some help. He replied that Normah likes Chocs, Cat, Blue and anything cute. So where can we find a Cute blue cat that likes to eat chocolate??? hmm. Haha we were hopeless plus kinda broke. So we settled for a nice chocolate. Pathetic right. haha but at least we got the chocolate part. Then bought a nice blue paper bag. Note the blue. Pasted a cute card on the bag. Cute part check. But alas we couldn't find a cat.

We had a good time, actually I had a good time looking for the presents. Im not sure about her. I hope she does. Hey I gotta enjoy it while it last, even if it was for a day. Im sorry but I gotta say this. Boy I really miss going out with that girl. She being her clumsy self. Banging her head on the table. Poor table. haha. Actually I knew it was gonna happen. But somehow rather I held the wrong part of her head. Spider sense working all right but judgment zero. haha. I felt uneasy the first few minutes being with her. Kept telling myself that she's taken and all. But after awhile, somehow the ice got broken and it felt like old times. Me teasing her non-stop.

Reached East coast on schedule. Around 5. Somehow rather, Adam was earlier. So told him to book a place. He got a place olrite. A place to eat in Mcdonalds. Haha. So me and liz went around scouting again for a place. Found BBQ pit 21 empty use it as a temporary place. Was hoping for the indian family in the small hut next to the pit to go off. So we sat baking in the hot sun praying that they would move off. In the end they did. We moved in, claim the place was ours then went off to eat. Liza's been complaining she's hungry, not to mention I was too. Hadn't had breakfast of lunch. All I had was a few "Jemput-Jemput".

Soon every came set up the place and we wait for the love birds to arrive. We waited and waited and waited. Haha ok lah it wasn't that long. Hairul came with Normah blindfold. When the blindfold were opened, we sang her the birthday song. Boy was she surprise. She was speechless. All I heard was "uh", "ah" from her. Haha ok it sounds obsence. But not a word came out of her mouth. Haha it was pretty funny. The party went on and slowly one by one everyone went off. Zheng Kai with Cindy, Hairul with Normah, Norana with her friend, Vani unfortunately alone, Aizzad with Adam and Liz with me. Saw her off at city hall. Wanted to accompany her home but she refuse. But as a guy I feel that its not really nice to let a girl go home on her own at night. But she assured me that she'll give me a buzz when she reached home. I reached home first waited for her call no call. I called her and found out she's on her way home, walking. So ok. Safe and sound.

Couldn't really sleep I was hoping the day would go on. I didnt want the memory to end. Watched a little dvd. Then went off to bed. So I took advantage of the time I had. Enjoyed myself. Turned it into a memory and imprint it deep into me. As metallica would say it "THE MEMORY REMAINS..........."

ciao people......

-blog out-

Olrite already Im updating. Sheesh......

Haha ignore the heading. Ok due to overwhelming response and numerous request, I will finally update my blog eventhough I've got nothing to write. I'll just write whatever comes to my mind, for the sake of my "fans".

Come to think of it. I didnt really think that anybody would ever read my blog. Use to make my blog so fancy so that whenever people come, they will be awe by it. Then to find out how many people would visit, I put up a counter. So far about 4 thousand people hav visit my blog. Minus a couple of hundred because It might hav been me visiting my own blog. I started blogging not long ago. Around year 1 I think. That would be in January 2004 I think. So it had been about a year of blogging. And a total of 4 thousand people had visit it.

Ok lets do a little mathematics. In a year there's 365 days. OK the last time I check the counter, It read 4440. Minus lets say about 440 times I enter my own blog. That leaves 4000. So to find the average number of people wisiting my blog each day, 4000 divide by 365 I would get, 10.96 people visiting my blog each day. Hmm 10 persons per day. not too bad ah. Considering there are still people willing to read it.

OK since i got nothing else to do. I try to attemp to guess who these 10 people are. ok here goes

1. First of all I think it would be Syahidin.
2. Then of all people I dunno why But i think its Liza
3. Then come my sister, Syazana
4. fourth would be Hafiz
5. might be Mif
6. might be zulhakim
7. might be Normah
8. might be my uncle all the way from london
9. others
10. others

Other would have meant blog hoppers. So I dunno if my list is correct. If I happen to be correct leave a message behind in my tagging I would like to know thank you.

Hmm at first i didnt think anybody would read about my life besides those whom I am close with, who I would like to share my life with and people whom I trust. Didnt know my life it that "important" to them. Haha. well you can say that they care for me. hahaha. As if. Well i really appreciate it guys for coming and reading about my life and of coz leaving messages behind. It really brightens the day knowing someone cares to read.

Ok before i start crapping again. I better stop.

P.S

To Liza, Din and Normah. Dont say I never update ah. Because of u 3 I update. haha

-blog out-

Juz for the fun of it....

Ten random things about me
10. Im a boring person why because basically there's nothing interesting about me.
09. Im a capricorn.
08. Mamma's boy, Its true I cant live without my mom.
07. Did I mention that Im lazy?
06. I suck in the malay language eventhough its my mother tongue.
05. I dream to make it big one day, who doesnt anyway.
04. Im a meat lover, steak, lamb chop, chicken chop u name it, i love it.
03. I rather stay home than go out, unless it gets really2 boring at home.
02. I am a very private person.
01. Oh ya Im also very shy, Im serious, put me with a girl and I go numb.

Nine ways to win my heart
09. Be yourself
08. A sweet smile.
07. Treat me with respect.
06. cook for me.
05. care for me.
04. Be a fren to me.
03. able to tolerate me.
02. able to mingle with my family members.
01. able to accept my friends.

Eight things I want to do before I die
08. Repent.
07. Travel the world.
06. Bungee jump.
05. Get married.
04. Have children.
03. Go for Haj.
02. to master any martial art.
01. enjoy life to the fullest.

Seven ways to annoy me
07. Be a bastard or a bitch.
06. Not being serious when I am.
05. Compare me with others.
04. show off.
03. trying to suck up to me/carry my balls (they ain't heavy by the way I'll manage).
02. immitate me.
01. merajuk(dunno the english term for it) easily.

Six things I believe in
06. God
05. Myself.
04. My Family and Friends.
03. With great power comes great responsibility.
02. Trust.
01. There's someone out there meant for me.

Five things I'm afraid of
05. God.
04. Not finding the "one".
03. Not able to live my dreams.
02. Watchin the malay community fall.
01. Not able to make my parent happy and proud.

Four of my favourite items in my room
04. My bed
03. My Computer (but alas, its spoilt. Gotta get it fixed soon)
02. My Spiderman comics
01. My TV.

Three things I do everyday
03. Sms, sms, sms
02. Eat, Eat, Eat
01. Sleep, sleep, sleep

Two things I want to do right now
02. Play my xbox
01. Call someone

One person I want to see right now
01. Juz someone.

19 years and counting....

"My presents this year"

• An Adidas t-shirt from Syarah, my cute lil sis
• Levis cap from my cousins
• 30 pounds from my aunt and uncle in london
• Adidas TKD shoes and Nokia 6230 from Mom
• FX creation wallet from Syaz and Meera me lovely sisters
• G-shock watch from my dad

Hey guys another year has passed and another year older. Hopefully this year would be a good year for me. OK first things first. I'm 19 years old now. 2 more years and I'm eligible to watch R21 shows ahahaha. Juz kidding. Almost coming to the end of my teenage years. Looking back at my yesteryears. All those fond memories. The process of growing up. Look through my photo albums. When I was a wee wee little baby boy (Kinda cute I must say), then my kindergarten days, The high flyer, always fighting for top 3 in class. Then came my primary school days. Honestly speaking my primary school days were my not say worst but my bad looking days. With those dorky glasses and "botak" head look. It was terrible i say oh and did I mention I was fat too. But at that time, I was still too young to worry about my looks anyway. Then in secondary school I started to make more attention to my appearence. Mainly for presentation and partly to attract the opposite sex (haha) and did I succeed? Well that's a different story. Then I graduated, now I'm in my polytechnic days. My oh my I did change a lot in terms of physically that is but deep down inside Im still the same shy little boy everyone knew and in terms of Mentally well lets say that was 1 of my major changes.

As they say the older you get the wiser you become and Its kinda true. Besides the knowledge part. I became more street smart, more understanding towards the world and people around me. Yesterday, had a conversation with my uncle whose all the way in london. Discuss about my life and he told me some secrets about his past. It seems we aren't that different afterall. Relate to him my current situation. He said something which actually gave me confidence. "It's their lost. Not yours(meaning me)" For all those relationships that I had lost, he made me realise that It wasn't my lost to lose the the girl but instead it was theirs for rejecting me. Not to say that Im boasting about myself( one of my new year resolutions this year is to remain humble) but lets face it. In our malay community there are not many guys with good qualities. What good qualities you may ask? well like, having very very close ties with their families, striving well in their studies, maintaining a good clean record, religous oriented and many more.

You don't see me smoke do you? A lot of my friends do but despite the constant peer pressure I still refrain myself from puffing away. Drugs? no way. Well maybe I was guilty of small stuffs like stealing, lying, scolding vulgarities but who doesnt? Everyone is bound to have lied once even saying the F word once in awhile. It's all part of growing up. This year my birthday wish is slightly different. No more have I concentrate only on myself but on the benefits of others. One of my wish was to see the the rise of the malay community. I hope in the future, I can see more malay holding high rankings in the army, air force, navy, police and everywhere. No more I wanna see malay kids, teenagers my age dropping out of school, committing undesirable acts and becoming the slums of the community. Aren't they ashame of themsleves? I dunno but I am ashame. Because it concerns me also. These kids i realise, aint stupid. They are actually quite smart but because of bad influnce and the lack of guidance from parents, they tend to flop.

I am thankful for having such great parents. It was and is the best present any child could ever get and I thank god for it. So this year looks like Im celebrating "alone" again. Not alone as in no one to celebrate with but "alone" in the sense that not havin a significant other. Maybe not this year. There is still next year. So yeah another year older and I still feel the same. haha.

Nah im making a point to change to a much more better me. oh yeah and I more other thing. I guess my love for her is ending now on the 13th of January 2005. take note of "January" coz that the title of the song Im gonna sing on my birthday....

Januari (GLEN)

Berat bebanku

Meninggalkanmu

Separuh nafas jiwaku

Sirna...

Bukan salahmu

Apa dayaku

Mungkin benar cinta sejati

Tak berpihak

Pada kita

Chorus:

Kasihku

Sampai disini kisah kita

Jangan tangisi keadaannya

Bukan karena kita berbeda

Dengarkan

Dengarkan lagu.....lagu ini

Melodi rintihan hati ini

Kisah kita berakhir di Januari

Selamat tinggal kisah sejatiku

Wow....pergilah

Thats all folks...... HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!!!!

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Goodbye to you.....

Artist: Michelle Branch
Album: Broken Bracelet
Title: Goodbye To You

Of all the things i've believed in,
I just want to get it over with,
Tears form behind my eyes,
But i do not cry,
Counting the days that pass me by.

I've been searchin' deep down in my soul,
Words that i'm hearin' are starting to get old,
It feels like i'm starting all over again,
The last three years were just pretend,
And i say-

*goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to.

I still get lost in your eyes,
And it seems that i can't live a day without you,
Closing my eyes,And you chase my thoughts away,
To a place where i am blinded by the light,

But it's not right.

*goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to.

Hold on to...
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time,

I want what's yours and i want what's mine,
I want you,
And i'm not giving in this time.

*goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to-Goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
You were the one i loved,
The one thing that i tried to hold on to.

Oh, oh woah,
And when the stars fall i will lie awake,
You're my shooting star.

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Betrayal

Oh man I feel so bad. Never had I imagine, I would fall for my bestfriend's girl. Well not exactly his girl. He likes her but she doesn't want a relationship. The thing is, I would never ever backstab a friend. It just so happen that I was left alone with her for 2-3hours and this happens!!!! Oh man. God help me. But I can't help it Im only human. It's just feelings right. Nothing more. But why am I feeling so guilty.

Was given a simple task of accompanying a friend till she go off for work but It turn out more like babysitting her. Watchin her sleep... NO NO NO NO. Dont even think about it.
Damn it. Stop it Syafiq.... It's not like you....

Somebody please help.....

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Singapore 4-1 Myanmar

Hey people juz got back from the national stadium. Went to watch the 2nd leg of the tiger cup semi-finals between Singapore and Myanmar. Set out early to meet up with Munir and friends to book a good seat. Was hoping for the weather to be dry but alas it rained the whole day. Was soaked to my bones. Upon reaching the stadium around 4 plus went to redeemed the free t-shirt (which was the same as the old t-shirt given during the Singapore Malaysia game) but i needed a change of clothing so die-die must redeem the t-shirt. Munir initially didnt wanna change but since the rest started to change including me, he too joined in. It was a good thing that we changed coz the moment we step in the stadium, some guy(propably the chairman of the Singapore die hard fanclub) Invited us to sit in the members area right next to the cheer leaders. haha. and next to the cheer leaders were the Myanmar fans.

With the ominous weather, even before the match started, I knew something bad is gonna happen. True enough. Myanmar and Singapore fans were verbally abusing each other, way before the match started. Even the presence of the police officers did not deter us. So in the pouring rain we sat while waiting for the match to begin. Soon my father joined me and my friends. The moment the match start, old memories start to flood my mind. Scenes of the old malaysia cup came floating by. My dad and I would be among the die hard fans cheering at the top of our lungs for the Singapore team. Today it was almost the same scence except that I've got friends to share the experience with. Its been awhile I've seen my father so excited. It was as if my dad were the same age as me. Cheering and jeering at the same time. The atmosphere was fantastic.

The 1st half didnt go too well as we went 2 goals down to Myanmar. The Myanmar fans were estatic and taunted us Singapore fans. We tried to calm ourselves down and prayed that the 2nd half would be better. True enough halfway thru the 2nd half, Noh Alam Shah scored and thus leveling us thru aggregate. Then things start to get ugly. Myanmar fans start to throw OUR LIONS T-SHIRT into the pitch. I dunno how they got them, maybe they redeem the t-shirts also. But yeah they started the throwing. Drinks started to fly, t-shirts, flags and anything that they could get their hands on. The police had a hard time calming them down. Some of them were arrested trying to pick a fight. Since we were sitting quite close, we get to see the scruffle 1st hand. But soon the matter dissolved and focus our concentration back towards the game. Then came the penalty kick. Again the Myanmar fans start throwin and jeering. Even the police weren't spared being thrown at. Saw 2 Myanmar fans jump into the pitch from the gallery, 1 drunk Myanmar fan tryin to cross over to our side and obviously tryin to pick a fight. We too weren't really innocent. We taunted them more. Daring them to come over and fight. Once again the police had to ease down the tension.

When 2 Myanmar player were given the marching orders were cheered. Indra step up to take the penalty. We were getting ready to celebrate, arms placed over each other shoulders. All were silent waiting for the ball to enter the back of the net. Then Indra MISSED!!!! We were crestfallen. The Myanmar fans cheered and taunted us. But we were at an advantage 11 players vs their 8. We went into extra-time. The goal fest started. We were cheering non-stop. Myanmar fans start to leave the stadium. We were singing "Goodbye songs" at the same time taunting them.

Then the bottle throwing incident happened. Even my dad was furious. Myanmar subsitute keeper Tun Tun Lin were given the marching orders. It was the 1st time in my life I've seen a player given the red card when he didnt even step into the pitch. The final whistle blew and we won 4 goals to 1. Thinking that everything was over, I was wrong. It was the beginning of a huge fight. Some idiotic "skinheads" started throwing things at the Myanmar fans. The Myanmar fans retaliate. Some fans from the opposite seats even came running towards our area. It was like watching an EPL or Italian serie A match. Where the fans turn rowdy. Umbrellas flew, rubbish bins threwn into the air and basically anything throwable were flung everywhere. Luckily we were spared. It was only between the Myanmar fans and the skinheads. We then heard a fight had started outside the east entrance so were decided to wait awhile before leaving. My father offered to give my friends a lift to the nearest MRT station. Once we were out and into the safety of my car. I drew a sign of relieve. It was pretty scary being in the middle of the action. Anything could have happened.

Dropped my friends at Aljuneid MRT then my father and I head down to Adam road hawker centre bought some food and head home to catch the repeat telecast. As if we hadnt had enough. haha. Had a lot of fun. despite the hustle and bustle. SO yeah we are into the finals. So when Singapore plays either Mayalsia or Indonesia at the National stadium, I'll be there to cheer the lions on.....

Got to go now ciao...

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Unexpected Bdae treat

Hello ppl. What a treat I had today. People whom I do not expect to remember my bdae remembers and even organize a treat for me. Well not for me only, but for all our friends whom were born in January. Went to East Coast beach for the party.

Rosne and Nadiah kinda organize the event. Initially I had tot it was a reunion for old friends(Thats what Rosne told me). But it turn out to be a bdae surprise. The January babys in ascending order of date Nuraini 3rd Jan, Zulhakim 9th Jan, Me(Syafiq) 13th Jan, Haafizz 14th Jan, Farhan 19th Jan and Kamal(Nuraini's BF) 21st or was it 24th Jan???
Anyway we had a good time despite the fact that it rained practically the whole day, were attacked by swarms of bees, eating wet caked and most backed out from the event. We make do with what we have. Played pool, played Dai dee and talked bout old & new times.

Left East coast ard 8-9 plus. While Zul and Fizz hav their bikes, Rosne's father picked her up, Farihin accompanied *ahem* and Nuraini went off wif her BF. I was left with Fidi and Rudy. Did a crazy thing. Took bus 30 from ECP all the way too Boon Lay. Reached home ard 2230hrs. Had a nice nap in the bus. Journey took more or less an hour. Parted ways with Fidi and Rudy.

So now here I am updating my blog. The ECP "bdae bash" pics hav already been put up. So juz click on the link and enjoy the pics. I guess thats about it for today ciao....

P.S

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

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