Something's gonna go wrong coz I'm feeling way too damn good

Hey been feeling rather happy for the past few weeks. First up was my birthday then the Spinnovex, which my project manage to clinch the gold award and also for passing my TKD grading.

The spinnovex event went smoothly. My presented my project to everybody, anybody interested. Was actually quite nervous about the marking criterias. They actually sent 2 professors from the US and China respectively to come access our projects. But thank god the presentation went smoothly and the judges were pretty impress by my project. Initially my project was suppose to be place in the small tent together with all the other robotics projects but due to some last minute changes my project together with a few others were shifted to the front of the big tent. So basically our groups(my project together with some other shifted projects) became the welcoming party for any guests. No doubt though it was strategically place because the guest-of-honours and VIPs were pretty much impress by Tony Hawk(skateboard project), Speedboat(my project) and company(Voice control and GUI). 4 days went by. By then we were all bored out of our wits and pretty damn tired of Tony, boat and gang. THe closing ceremony video was superb with the inclusion of some pretty hilarious clips by Din. The icing on the cake for the day was Tony, Boat and Gang actually won the Gold award for the Electrical Electronic Engineering department. All our hard work has actually paid off.

Next up was the results for the Black belt grading. Yes I pass and so did the other 4 who went with me Hairoul, Edmund, Rena and Qiao Zhen. So SPTKDC now has 3 more sirs and 2 more ma'ams.

So with every high there must be a low. For every good there is bad and every heaven there is hell. I guess u get my idea. Well with all these highs in life, I'm patiently waiting for those lows to come charging around the corner. Looks like I don't have to wait long. As they always say "Curiousity kills a cat" and thats what actually happen to me. Being so nosey and busybody happen to read up about certain things which I couldn't really digest. I clearly remember saying that I have to let her go. BUt I dunno why I still couldn't do it. I say that I did but in actually fact Im still craving for her deep inside. Tried to forget about her by trying to get close to an old aquintance but it seems I blew my chance and was too late. She already found her one.

I feel like the whole world's laughing at me now. When I though that that was the only low point another hit me. Prior to me passing my grading its obvious that I have to get a black belt gee. Normally getting my parents to sponser the gee wouldnt be a problem but with the finacial difficulties we are facing now, I guess it would have to wait. BUt the surprising thing is how they still could afford to buy me those expensive birthday presents. I feel kinda guilty asking for another $110 for the gee after they spent over $200 on my presents. Damn If only money grow on trees. Life would have been way way easier.

Ever had the feeling that your bestfriend could really be the one for you. Now I know why most bestfriends end up being couples. Mainly because you spent so much time with them, your problems you share with them and also both of you know each others weaknesses and yet your willing to accept them. I heard that part of being in love is to being able to accept your partners flaws. So yeah I'm kinda getting slowly attach to someone. But the problem is. There's always a problem, If there are none then I wouldnt be writing it here, haiz. Anyway I dunno how this particular someone feels about me. The friendship is there no doubt. BUt everytime I tried to tell or show my feelings, something or someone will intervene. I'm afraid that If i tell her my feelings then this ackward feeling will suddenly developed between us and the beautiful friendship we share will be broken. I'm always down on luck when it concern matters of the heart. Either I'm too slow to approach her, She rejects me, I'm afraid to spoilt the friendship or etc. Maybe I'm just not cut out for it. Maybe I should be like those old army/police sign on's who have no time for relationships and blissfully married to their careers. I dunno.

Well as the title tells you, Something's gonna go wrong coz I'm feeling way too damn good. So after I get thru these low points hopefully some other high points will come running and save me. SO yeah gotta run. Parents yelling at me to bring out the trash. "YES IM COMING!!!!!"

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20 good old years

My Birthday presents this year:
Spiderman Mugs - From Syarah
Adidas Black Tee and Adidas Handphone pouch - From Syazana and Meera
Adidas Blue sweater - From Mum
Timbuk2 messenger bag - From Dad
Thanks Mum, Dad and My lovely sisters luv them.



So yeah its finally here the big TWO-ZERO. 20 good old years have pass. Have finally surpass the teenager phase. Taking my first few steps into Adulthood. Looking back 20 years. Finally realise how much I've grown and learn. From learning how to walk to getting my driver's license. All these achievements and drawbacks, I owe it all to family and friends. I guess they are the most important thing that happen in my life and I hope they continue to be there for me and vice versa. To be frank I don't really feel 20. Haha still feel like a 2 year old in fact.

With age comes responsibility. I hope I've been a good role model towards my sisters these 20 years. Will be ending my Poly education soon. So my next responsibility is to try to get into a University. National Service is just around the corner. Finally not to mention that I've not been a very good muslim the last 20 years. I have to start praying regularly now. Missed too many prayer times.

Next week is the Spinnovex week. Just got news that my project got highlighted. Another sweet birthday present. Also waiting for 1 more present from The Singapore Taekwondo Federation. But that will come on the 21st of January.

This year due the family decided to celebrate both Meera(24 Jan) and My birthday together. So the birthday dinner that we have annually will be postponed to next week. I wonder where my parents have in mind to bring us this year. hmm.

Well another year, another year older. Very happy with the presents. Although I didnt get most of the things I ask for. NO car so sad. haha. It doesnt really matter. Will save money then to get those myself. Or wait till next year.

Finally a big thank you to all who send me birthday wishes. I'm really touched that you remembered my birthday(Or you didnt?) Anyways THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its time for me to go. bye all and Happy birthday to me.....

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Grading

Hey just came back from My Taekwondo grading today. It was damn scary man. Well its not like I've never been to a TKD grading before but this is "THE" grading. The one that seperates the man from the boys in TKD. Yes you name it. The black belt grading. 5 of us from Singapore Poly came to try our best to earn that black belt. Edmund, Rena, Qiao Zhen, Hairoul and of coz me. Never been to a black belt grading before. Figured It would be like any normal colour belt grading but I was wrong. The atmosphere was much much more frightening. A single mistake is all it takes to blow your chances of earning that black belt. The criterias are much more strict. The grading was held at Toa Payoh sports hall. Where future black belts from all over Singapore come together to try their luck. Upon entering the hall, I felt like all eyes are on me. Accessing me from top to bottom. The night before had trouble sleeping. Woke up once at 3.45am and once at 4 plus. Had set the alarm to go off at 10am instead at 9.57am I was fully awake.

BAck to the hall. Change to my gee and did a little warming up. A few minutes later we were called to assemble and were sort out according to alphabetical order by our names. I was lucky to be place in the same detail as Hairoul, My long time TKD buddy. Almost all of our gradings we were place together. It's funny how we always end up together. Grading, Sparring, anything. And the best think about having a buddy with you is that you can "act" or "wayang" a bit. We always synchonise our pattern and the best part comes during sparring. The way we spar, well lets just say we even make hollywood proud. Well thanks bro. If it weren't for you. I wouldn't make it this far in TKD.

The long wait was actually the worst. The antipation was killing both me and hairoul. But I guess its the same with the rest of the future black belts. My detail was detail 21. When it was my turn finally. Four of us went out and position ourselves in front of the 3 judges. The commander gave the command for us to start our pattern and both hairoul and me did it in unison. Panic a little at first but I thought about my parents im my head and calm down. Thats my secret, whenever I'm scared or panicking. I will think of my parents and I will finally calm down and have this drive to continue what I'm doing. The pattern when fine. Next was the sparring section. NOthing to comment except that my first sparring partner was a 5th Dan black belt. What luck. But luckily he pull back his kicks. 2nd sparring partner was of coz Hairoul and lastly was a small frame chinese guy. Felt a little guilty coz I kinda kick him in the face. But his ok with it. Apologise to him after the sparring session.

Overall we did ok. Well our supporters said we did ok. My instructor said we did ok. So thats why I say we did ok. Well lets just leave it till 21 January. The propose date for the results to be released. After the grading the guys went to Bishan to eat. Only ate a piece of chicken coz mum and dad apparently cooked crabs for dinner today. So im saving my stomach for that.

So here I am just came back from grading, eaten and showered. Am feeling a little tired now so i guess I'll just sign off now. bye

P.S. Apologise for a pretty crappy and not so good english entry. Am listening/talking to my sister while typing this and I am feeling very sleepy.

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