Something's gonna go wrong coz I'm feeling way too damn good

Hey been feeling rather happy for the past few weeks. First up was my birthday then the Spinnovex, which my project manage to clinch the gold award and also for passing my TKD grading.

The spinnovex event went smoothly. My presented my project to everybody, anybody interested. Was actually quite nervous about the marking criterias. They actually sent 2 professors from the US and China respectively to come access our projects. But thank god the presentation went smoothly and the judges were pretty impress by my project. Initially my project was suppose to be place in the small tent together with all the other robotics projects but due to some last minute changes my project together with a few others were shifted to the front of the big tent. So basically our groups(my project together with some other shifted projects) became the welcoming party for any guests. No doubt though it was strategically place because the guest-of-honours and VIPs were pretty much impress by Tony Hawk(skateboard project), Speedboat(my project) and company(Voice control and GUI). 4 days went by. By then we were all bored out of our wits and pretty damn tired of Tony, boat and gang. THe closing ceremony video was superb with the inclusion of some pretty hilarious clips by Din. The icing on the cake for the day was Tony, Boat and Gang actually won the Gold award for the Electrical Electronic Engineering department. All our hard work has actually paid off.

Next up was the results for the Black belt grading. Yes I pass and so did the other 4 who went with me Hairoul, Edmund, Rena and Qiao Zhen. So SPTKDC now has 3 more sirs and 2 more ma'ams.

So with every high there must be a low. For every good there is bad and every heaven there is hell. I guess u get my idea. Well with all these highs in life, I'm patiently waiting for those lows to come charging around the corner. Looks like I don't have to wait long. As they always say "Curiousity kills a cat" and thats what actually happen to me. Being so nosey and busybody happen to read up about certain things which I couldn't really digest. I clearly remember saying that I have to let her go. BUt I dunno why I still couldn't do it. I say that I did but in actually fact Im still craving for her deep inside. Tried to forget about her by trying to get close to an old aquintance but it seems I blew my chance and was too late. She already found her one.

I feel like the whole world's laughing at me now. When I though that that was the only low point another hit me. Prior to me passing my grading its obvious that I have to get a black belt gee. Normally getting my parents to sponser the gee wouldnt be a problem but with the finacial difficulties we are facing now, I guess it would have to wait. BUt the surprising thing is how they still could afford to buy me those expensive birthday presents. I feel kinda guilty asking for another $110 for the gee after they spent over $200 on my presents. Damn If only money grow on trees. Life would have been way way easier.

Ever had the feeling that your bestfriend could really be the one for you. Now I know why most bestfriends end up being couples. Mainly because you spent so much time with them, your problems you share with them and also both of you know each others weaknesses and yet your willing to accept them. I heard that part of being in love is to being able to accept your partners flaws. So yeah I'm kinda getting slowly attach to someone. But the problem is. There's always a problem, If there are none then I wouldnt be writing it here, haiz. Anyway I dunno how this particular someone feels about me. The friendship is there no doubt. BUt everytime I tried to tell or show my feelings, something or someone will intervene. I'm afraid that If i tell her my feelings then this ackward feeling will suddenly developed between us and the beautiful friendship we share will be broken. I'm always down on luck when it concern matters of the heart. Either I'm too slow to approach her, She rejects me, I'm afraid to spoilt the friendship or etc. Maybe I'm just not cut out for it. Maybe I should be like those old army/police sign on's who have no time for relationships and blissfully married to their careers. I dunno.

Well as the title tells you, Something's gonna go wrong coz I'm feeling way too damn good. So after I get thru these low points hopefully some other high points will come running and save me. SO yeah gotta run. Parents yelling at me to bring out the trash. "YES IM COMING!!!!!"

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