Sins of the past seems to be catching up with me. Now I have to face the music. 1 thing tat I really fear the most is makin enemies or rather to be more specific makin people hate me. But the advitable had happen....
A month has past. Well almost a month. Thinkin tat the anger and tension had subside. Decided to pick up the bits and pieces of our friendship and see if i could salvage anything. But it seems the river or fire have yet to be put out. Apologise and blurted out my fears. Strong and firm was the reply. So sharp tat it stings like hell. Tears fell like raindrops.
Wat have I done to have offended you so much. Respect? You mention bout respect. I am a S/CLT in the National Cadet Corps. Someone whom is all too familiar with the word. The first day in NCC and the word respect has been drilled into my head. Ask any Ncc cadets if u dont believe me. "Rank is wat u wear. Respect is wat u earn".
Haiz if I could turn back time, I would play it all differently. All I want right now is just friendship. Not more than that. Watever it is. I'll treasure our previous friendship.
If you're reading this, you know who you are, I wish you happiness and success in watever you do.... thank you.
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Sunday, June 27, 2004
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Back from Spec Coz phase 1
Halooooooooo, im back....
You guys miss me? hahaha. Ok actually reached home yesterday. Was too tired to blog. Anyway here's wat you missed the past 4 days.....
Book in the night before the camp. Bunk in at 425 at Amoy Quee camp. Was given the post Platoon Commander(PC) for Bravo 6. The Bravo OC was Sukhbir my old buddy, so its good. Since I know how he works. The first day was pretty boring since the whole day, the cadets are going for the donation drive thingy. The actually events for the day were cancelled because of the drive. Which made us CLTS very frustrated coz usually the 1st day we had the revision for the cadets. Under me were 2 more Clts from the 46th intake so kinda fresh. Tried my best to guide them thru luckily they are the smart type. So ya i got a total of 39 cadets under me. 10 girls and 29 boys. Was actually disapointed when I saw i got no girl APC. Usually if there are female cadets in the platoon they will attach 1 female clt. But luckily i manage to get 10 girls. 5 from Cresent and 5 from Tanglin sec. Wah the best part is The Tanglin girls were all sooooooo cute haha. But alas im there to lead and teach not to look at girls. Anyway it doesnt hurt to mingle with my cadets hahahaha.
The second day, however I book out for my TKD tournament. Manage to get gold for the Sa Jang pattern. It was soooooo cool. SP was like bagging all the gold for every category we took part in. Then got the overall senior champion. But didnt get the overall throphy since we only sent 3 teams. PLus we could only take part in the Senior category not the Junior and Youth cat. But nevermind. NOw this sets me thinkin. Why we did badly during IVP? or isit the other teams were better. All I know is that we didnt do that badly. So we prove it right in this tournament. Some more the 2 judges were the same on both occasions. After the tourny went to eat at KFC to celebrate our victory. Then head home to change, shower and book in back again to camp.
Book in found the cadets doing their GSK(General Specialist Knowledge) test. After which had night snack and then lights off. The nxt day, was test day for the cadets. Tested them their IFC and Trainfire. All passed. But not quality passes. So they might go home 3rd Sgt instead of 2nd Sgt. So on this night, 14 June 2004, in room 2-14 block 425, I got my "passport chopped". Dunno how i escaped till now after gettin my senior rank. Suppose to get chopped before I get my ranked. Sukhbir, Rehan, Roy, Hamza, Kevin Po, Kevin Tan all came down to chop us, the junior clt from 46th, me and some other seniors whom manage to escape like Keith and Richard. Did some crazy stuffs. It was pretty hectic but at the same time pretty funny. In the end Sgt Effendy and another Singapura personal came into the room stop the choppin and instead Chop the choppers. Haha but they were good sport. Did as instructed. And everyone slept early that night haha.
The next day was passing out day. Let my APC do all the work while I continue sleeping. Haha Im such a bad PC. Didnt eat breakfast. Took my time to shower then pack up my barang2. The cadets were packing up their stuffs. Went up to ask for my appraisal. Most of them wrote I was a good PC. haha 1 even wrote I was cute. another wrote I was the best PC ever. Haha kids....
At 4 plus, the Passing Out Parade started. Watchin my cadets pass out, I felt like a proud parent. The past 4 days had been wonderful. Of coz there was a lot of scolding, shouting also a lot of praises and compliments along the way. Gonna miss them. 1 memorable night was the selection of the OOC (overall outstanding cadet) me and Sukhbir came up with a plan. We called out 2 nominess from each bravo platoon. (bravo 4,5 and 6) shouted at them, ask them to go up packed their stuffs and come down fall in. We told them the Clts complain that they were defiant and were nominated for OOC which means Out of Course. We took some fake certificates and tore them in front of their faces, step on it and so on so forth. We tried to be as ruthless as possible. A few of them were startin to cry. 1 girl actually did cry in the end. When we tot it was enuf, we at last told them they we nominated fot the Best Cadet. BOy were they relief. Tears or sadness turn to tears or joy, anger and remorse turn to joy and happiness. The nominess, even complimented on our acting. Surely it was a night for them to remember.
So now im back from camp. Am sitting down relieving the whole camp again in my mind again. Hopefully will get to see them again next year in Senior Spec coz. Aye by the way im going for phase 2 also next week. So another bunch of cadets will be at my mercy haha. No lah im a nice SCLT right....(Wicked laugh) ok im outta here will blog in some other time...
-blog out-
You guys miss me? hahaha. Ok actually reached home yesterday. Was too tired to blog. Anyway here's wat you missed the past 4 days.....
Book in the night before the camp. Bunk in at 425 at Amoy Quee camp. Was given the post Platoon Commander(PC) for Bravo 6. The Bravo OC was Sukhbir my old buddy, so its good. Since I know how he works. The first day was pretty boring since the whole day, the cadets are going for the donation drive thingy. The actually events for the day were cancelled because of the drive. Which made us CLTS very frustrated coz usually the 1st day we had the revision for the cadets. Under me were 2 more Clts from the 46th intake so kinda fresh. Tried my best to guide them thru luckily they are the smart type. So ya i got a total of 39 cadets under me. 10 girls and 29 boys. Was actually disapointed when I saw i got no girl APC. Usually if there are female cadets in the platoon they will attach 1 female clt. But luckily i manage to get 10 girls. 5 from Cresent and 5 from Tanglin sec. Wah the best part is The Tanglin girls were all sooooooo cute haha. But alas im there to lead and teach not to look at girls. Anyway it doesnt hurt to mingle with my cadets hahahaha.
The second day, however I book out for my TKD tournament. Manage to get gold for the Sa Jang pattern. It was soooooo cool. SP was like bagging all the gold for every category we took part in. Then got the overall senior champion. But didnt get the overall throphy since we only sent 3 teams. PLus we could only take part in the Senior category not the Junior and Youth cat. But nevermind. NOw this sets me thinkin. Why we did badly during IVP? or isit the other teams were better. All I know is that we didnt do that badly. So we prove it right in this tournament. Some more the 2 judges were the same on both occasions. After the tourny went to eat at KFC to celebrate our victory. Then head home to change, shower and book in back again to camp.
Book in found the cadets doing their GSK(General Specialist Knowledge) test. After which had night snack and then lights off. The nxt day, was test day for the cadets. Tested them their IFC and Trainfire. All passed. But not quality passes. So they might go home 3rd Sgt instead of 2nd Sgt. So on this night, 14 June 2004, in room 2-14 block 425, I got my "passport chopped". Dunno how i escaped till now after gettin my senior rank. Suppose to get chopped before I get my ranked. Sukhbir, Rehan, Roy, Hamza, Kevin Po, Kevin Tan all came down to chop us, the junior clt from 46th, me and some other seniors whom manage to escape like Keith and Richard. Did some crazy stuffs. It was pretty hectic but at the same time pretty funny. In the end Sgt Effendy and another Singapura personal came into the room stop the choppin and instead Chop the choppers. Haha but they were good sport. Did as instructed. And everyone slept early that night haha.
The next day was passing out day. Let my APC do all the work while I continue sleeping. Haha Im such a bad PC. Didnt eat breakfast. Took my time to shower then pack up my barang2. The cadets were packing up their stuffs. Went up to ask for my appraisal. Most of them wrote I was a good PC. haha 1 even wrote I was cute. another wrote I was the best PC ever. Haha kids....
At 4 plus, the Passing Out Parade started. Watchin my cadets pass out, I felt like a proud parent. The past 4 days had been wonderful. Of coz there was a lot of scolding, shouting also a lot of praises and compliments along the way. Gonna miss them. 1 memorable night was the selection of the OOC (overall outstanding cadet) me and Sukhbir came up with a plan. We called out 2 nominess from each bravo platoon. (bravo 4,5 and 6) shouted at them, ask them to go up packed their stuffs and come down fall in. We told them the Clts complain that they were defiant and were nominated for OOC which means Out of Course. We took some fake certificates and tore them in front of their faces, step on it and so on so forth. We tried to be as ruthless as possible. A few of them were startin to cry. 1 girl actually did cry in the end. When we tot it was enuf, we at last told them they we nominated fot the Best Cadet. BOy were they relief. Tears or sadness turn to tears or joy, anger and remorse turn to joy and happiness. The nominess, even complimented on our acting. Surely it was a night for them to remember.
So now im back from camp. Am sitting down relieving the whole camp again in my mind again. Hopefully will get to see them again next year in Senior Spec coz. Aye by the way im going for phase 2 also next week. So another bunch of cadets will be at my mercy haha. No lah im a nice SCLT right....(Wicked laugh) ok im outta here will blog in some other time...
-blog out-
Friday, June 11, 2004
The Brudders of Dizturbance Overnight at ECP
Well as the title suggest, My secondary schools brudders when to ECP to overnight and as usual due to some circumstances I did not overnight with then instead went home. It has been awhile since I went out with them. Feel like I have been neglecting them. Initially didnt want to go because I have lots of things to do, with TKD trainin the next day and also to get ready for Spec Coz. But still I made time for my friends. (So guys dont say I dont make time you guys ah).
So ok meet up with the guys at Jurong East around 1.30pm, I tot I was late but surprisingly I was 1st. haha. Soon all came Fidi, Sham, Rey, Zulhakim, Rudy and Fizz. Head down to Plaza Singapura Carrefour to stock up on supplies. Then guys were kinda a bit disorganise, so I had to step in. Bought drinks, bread, some spreads like tuna and nutella. They even bought cup noodles. But the problem is where to get hot water. They said its possible so ok its up to them to decide not me. Im not stayin overnight. Oh yeah saw Nadya at Carrefour. At last after numerous trips to PS Carrefour finally get to meet her. She's ok lah. Cute but short. haha sorry girl juz statin the fact.
After gettin our supplies, took bus 36 i think, forgot the number to Parkway Parade. Then we walked down to ECP. Everyone was kinda tired of carrying the tent, so It was passed to me. Wore it like a backpack on my front. So I look like some kind of robot. With my Deuter bag at my back and the tent on my front. Haha. At last after a long walk we found a perfect spot near the mcdonalds area. Which is good, toilet is near and so is the bike rental. Set up the tent. Then changed for fun. But before that we were all famished. Ate some of our ration then we had our fun. Didnt felt like swimming, so I juz stayed on dry land. Plus I was wearing gee pants. Zul is also in TKD so we decide to try some stunts. I forgot my camera damn nvm. Sham brought his but batt low. Wah wasnt really our day. Manage to take a few pictures before the batt died. Nearby some girls were bbqing. And being boys haha. Disturb them a bit. Had lots of fun. Made a sandcastle. Soon it was almost evening. Rented bikes for overnight for $10. It was a good bargain man. Overnight for $10. Overnight means 10plus hours. We calculated, we juz paid 75cents for 1 hour while others paid 6 for 1 hour. Haha.
At last 9pm came. I bade my compatriots farewell and head home. Reached home in time to watch O.C (thank god) Showered then went to sleep. Woke up slighty late this morning But wasnt late for Friday prayers. Now am home after prayers updating my blog. Will eat lunch then get ready for TKD. Will ask for an early exit for I will hav to book before 10pm tonight for Spec coz. PLus will hav to book out Saturday night because for the Whompoa Tourny on Sunday. Then after the tourny hav to book in again for camp. Haiz so busy. Plus family wont be home. They will be in Johor. Ok lah wanna eat before going. So yeah will take a break from blogging and will be back on tuesday. So for my regular fans out there juz bear with it. Oh yeah anyway I'll update thru Sms. So juz check out my PHLOGGER. ciao
-blog out-
So ok meet up with the guys at Jurong East around 1.30pm, I tot I was late but surprisingly I was 1st. haha. Soon all came Fidi, Sham, Rey, Zulhakim, Rudy and Fizz. Head down to Plaza Singapura Carrefour to stock up on supplies. Then guys were kinda a bit disorganise, so I had to step in. Bought drinks, bread, some spreads like tuna and nutella. They even bought cup noodles. But the problem is where to get hot water. They said its possible so ok its up to them to decide not me. Im not stayin overnight. Oh yeah saw Nadya at Carrefour. At last after numerous trips to PS Carrefour finally get to meet her. She's ok lah. Cute but short. haha sorry girl juz statin the fact.
After gettin our supplies, took bus 36 i think, forgot the number to Parkway Parade. Then we walked down to ECP. Everyone was kinda tired of carrying the tent, so It was passed to me. Wore it like a backpack on my front. So I look like some kind of robot. With my Deuter bag at my back and the tent on my front. Haha. At last after a long walk we found a perfect spot near the mcdonalds area. Which is good, toilet is near and so is the bike rental. Set up the tent. Then changed for fun. But before that we were all famished. Ate some of our ration then we had our fun. Didnt felt like swimming, so I juz stayed on dry land. Plus I was wearing gee pants. Zul is also in TKD so we decide to try some stunts. I forgot my camera damn nvm. Sham brought his but batt low. Wah wasnt really our day. Manage to take a few pictures before the batt died. Nearby some girls were bbqing. And being boys haha. Disturb them a bit. Had lots of fun. Made a sandcastle. Soon it was almost evening. Rented bikes for overnight for $10. It was a good bargain man. Overnight for $10. Overnight means 10plus hours. We calculated, we juz paid 75cents for 1 hour while others paid 6 for 1 hour. Haha.
At last 9pm came. I bade my compatriots farewell and head home. Reached home in time to watch O.C (thank god) Showered then went to sleep. Woke up slighty late this morning But wasnt late for Friday prayers. Now am home after prayers updating my blog. Will eat lunch then get ready for TKD. Will ask for an early exit for I will hav to book before 10pm tonight for Spec coz. PLus will hav to book out Saturday night because for the Whompoa Tourny on Sunday. Then after the tourny hav to book in again for camp. Haiz so busy. Plus family wont be home. They will be in Johor. Ok lah wanna eat before going. So yeah will take a break from blogging and will be back on tuesday. So for my regular fans out there juz bear with it. Oh yeah anyway I'll update thru Sms. So juz check out my PHLOGGER. ciao
-blog out-
Sunday, June 06, 2004
Yet another BBQ
Yesterday had yet another BBQ. At Pasir Ris Downtown East chalet. This time its with old neighbours. Its been a long time since I've seen them. The last time would have been in Sec 1 or rather at the end or my Primary 6. Not all could make it though. But still it was a happy reunion. Seeing old faces again. The parents we hugging, laughin havin load of fun. The children however. That is me and the other neighbour kids, we lets say a little shy.
The fathers were the relax kind. Had the usual gathering of fathers at 1 table with their drinks and food talkin bout general stuff like soccer, the economy and other stuffs. The mothers in the other hand were the noisy bunch. Laughing loudly, making jokes obviously they were talkin bout memories. Use to remember the times where, after school all the mothers would gather under the block while waitin for us to come home. The mothers would sit and chit chat at the stone tables. The same stone tables, where we would have "mini-picnics", birthday parties or juz the usual after school chit chat session.
And being there last night among the familiar sounds, I could really imagine myself back to the good old days. Except this time, the kids are all grown up. Yesterday, Suransi, Moransi, the 3 brothers whom I forgot their names, my sisters and me, we basically the only ones left. The rest couldnt make it. So yeah there use to be a whole bunch of us, playin together. Me, Hidir, Khairi, Moransi, the 3 brothers, Abg Bobo, Shidah, Suransi, Mariani, my sisters and few others I reckon except I hav forgotten them. Sorry If I left anyone out its not intentionally. We were an ok bunch, grew up together. Got scolded together. I remember 1 incident where me and Khairi got caught for stealing. Well yeah sometimes we were a little on the havoc side. We werent let off easily anyway that was in primary school.
So yeah last night was a total different in the kids section. Well except I see my childhood now in Syarah. She didnt hav any problem mixing with the smaller younger additions to the club. whom were still babies when I was playin with their older siblings. Syarah met new frens. All the moms were teasin me and Suran. Since we were the Same age all. And we had a rather interesting history together. I'll spare the details. But let me tell you our relationship aint pretty. Lets say it was a constant battle between the titans. So yeah we were teased non-stop. Moran in the other hand, Well he use to be the lets say a cry baby. But yesterday, he's all grown up. In fact he's playin for the Singapore under 14 Soccer team. Way to go Moran. and did I mention change so much In appearence I mean. Until the extent of my sister sayin "He's so cute". Haha.
But later on was force to go for a walk with Suran. Yeah but we didnt walk far juz a few blocks away and sat down(She said she was tired haha) for a chat to catch up with each other. Sat and talked till our moms smsed us, sayin they gonna make a move. So walked back the the bbq pit and bade our farewells. Moms were hugging again. Dads being cool juz salam and said goodbye. I even got help from Uncle Sanip(father of the 3 brothers) for my drivin license.
Reached home quite late almost 1. Then slept woke up early this morning for pattern trainin. My whole team didnt turn up in the end i juz slack without doing anything while the other team sweat it out. After trainin, played RISK 2021 A.D. version with Rikki, Sebastion, Din, Yun Jie and Me. Played till bout 7 and then head home. Had Dinner with Din at Banquet not the Jurong Point 1 but at the Jurong West Market near Din's house. Had fish and chips. Wanted to pack Carrot cake for tonight's match, France vs Ukraine but decided not 2. So now am home, finish showering, watched Harry Potter and now updating me blog. Haiz thats bout it then. ciao.........
Oh yeah will update the pics for the BBQ, so just check the links for updates.
-blog out-
The fathers were the relax kind. Had the usual gathering of fathers at 1 table with their drinks and food talkin bout general stuff like soccer, the economy and other stuffs. The mothers in the other hand were the noisy bunch. Laughing loudly, making jokes obviously they were talkin bout memories. Use to remember the times where, after school all the mothers would gather under the block while waitin for us to come home. The mothers would sit and chit chat at the stone tables. The same stone tables, where we would have "mini-picnics", birthday parties or juz the usual after school chit chat session.
And being there last night among the familiar sounds, I could really imagine myself back to the good old days. Except this time, the kids are all grown up. Yesterday, Suransi, Moransi, the 3 brothers whom I forgot their names, my sisters and me, we basically the only ones left. The rest couldnt make it. So yeah there use to be a whole bunch of us, playin together. Me, Hidir, Khairi, Moransi, the 3 brothers, Abg Bobo, Shidah, Suransi, Mariani, my sisters and few others I reckon except I hav forgotten them. Sorry If I left anyone out its not intentionally. We were an ok bunch, grew up together. Got scolded together. I remember 1 incident where me and Khairi got caught for stealing. Well yeah sometimes we were a little on the havoc side. We werent let off easily anyway that was in primary school.
So yeah last night was a total different in the kids section. Well except I see my childhood now in Syarah. She didnt hav any problem mixing with the smaller younger additions to the club. whom were still babies when I was playin with their older siblings. Syarah met new frens. All the moms were teasin me and Suran. Since we were the Same age all. And we had a rather interesting history together. I'll spare the details. But let me tell you our relationship aint pretty. Lets say it was a constant battle between the titans. So yeah we were teased non-stop. Moran in the other hand, Well he use to be the lets say a cry baby. But yesterday, he's all grown up. In fact he's playin for the Singapore under 14 Soccer team. Way to go Moran. and did I mention change so much In appearence I mean. Until the extent of my sister sayin "He's so cute". Haha.
But later on was force to go for a walk with Suran. Yeah but we didnt walk far juz a few blocks away and sat down(She said she was tired haha) for a chat to catch up with each other. Sat and talked till our moms smsed us, sayin they gonna make a move. So walked back the the bbq pit and bade our farewells. Moms were hugging again. Dads being cool juz salam and said goodbye. I even got help from Uncle Sanip(father of the 3 brothers) for my drivin license.
Reached home quite late almost 1. Then slept woke up early this morning for pattern trainin. My whole team didnt turn up in the end i juz slack without doing anything while the other team sweat it out. After trainin, played RISK 2021 A.D. version with Rikki, Sebastion, Din, Yun Jie and Me. Played till bout 7 and then head home. Had Dinner with Din at Banquet not the Jurong Point 1 but at the Jurong West Market near Din's house. Had fish and chips. Wanted to pack Carrot cake for tonight's match, France vs Ukraine but decided not 2. So now am home, finish showering, watched Harry Potter and now updating me blog. Haiz thats bout it then. ciao.........
Oh yeah will update the pics for the BBQ, so just check the links for updates.
-blog out-
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
BBQ at East Coast
Today 2 June, Went to East Coast for a BBQ with Moi Cousins and Families. But its only 3 Families ah. The best part is Abang Hamza is there. So it adds a bit of punch to the outing. Woke up pretty early around 8 to get ready. Meet up at Abang Hamza's house. From there we head off to East Coast.
Arrived at 11, but couldnt find a parking lot at carpark F2. There seem to be a lot of people today due to the public holiday. In the end we had to change our destination to Carpark D2. The toilet aint as nice as at F2 though, but still its better than havin none. Set up the tent and the bbq pit. Syarah couldnt wait to swim so she went in first with Wak Abbas. At least there is someone to look out for her. Dad, Pak Wee and Me started the fire. Forgot to check for firestarters so we end up with only 1. But we manage to set it up. Had to get back to basics. Used coconut husk and anything thats burns easily.
Ate first before taking a plunge. Waited for Abang Hamza. Soon both of us plus my sisters and Abang Ain were splashing away. Kak Ana couldnt join us since she's in her 7 months pregnantcy. Mom, Mak Lim and Mak Nyah just sat and ate at the tent area. We had fun. Abang Hamza was his funny self. Always making fun and jokes to make us laugh. Actually we make a good pair. Me and him. He does part time Dj during wedding ceremonies and also at Malay village during the weekends. We gave me his card and ask me along to help him with his DJ-ing. Sounds like a good idea so I agreed plus I could use some extra income. Ok back to ECP.
We swam, eat, swam, eat and swam. Practically thats wat we did the whole day. Except the time they buried me and turned me into a mermaid haha. You can check out the pictures taken thru the link below under pictures. Not much pictures though. Mom wasnt a good photographer plus i was busy swimmin and eating hehe. Around 4plus decided that we had enough plus the foods almost gone. So we showered and changed. Was already clean and fresh when Dad asked me to clean the BBQ pit. Now this is when I get really pissed. I was wearing jeans and a white polo tee. Plus i tot we could wash it in the toilet but scared the debries would choked up the sink, So dad told me to wash it in the ocean. Not one to argue so I took the whole pit down to the sea. Rolled up my jeans and started scrubbing the pit with the sand and rinse it with the salt water. I guess the sea wasnt that forgiving. They splash we with full force. The bottom part of my jeans were fully wet and My white tee were covered with brown spots due to the dirt mixing with the water. Was damn frustrated. Luckily I had an extra t-shirt underneath. Took the pit back up shore. Abang Hamza saw my expression and quicky help, Dad too. I heard someone said I look frustrated. And Damn right they are. Change to my extra t shirt. But had to go home in my wet jeans No choice bout it.
Bade farewell to my cousins and Aunties and headed home. Dad asked whether we wanted to go for an early dinner. I didnt say anything. Sensing my predicament, they decided to head home. Well reached home showere again and now felt fresh again. Watched Ghostbusters 2 and now updating my blog. Fiz msg me. Well Fiz I think ur handle urslef ok with the conversation. There's nothing wrong with your answers. Liz too msg me. To you my dear there's no need to apologise. Now it seems everyone thinks im a stalker. I know that you mean no harm in askin "why? Nak stalk ke?" those were your exact words. To prove it i still have the sms. But let me tell you, in fact not you only ah to everyone who knows me. Do you know the meaning of "Stalker" here let me tell you
"Stalker"
- One who Stalks
and what is "Stalk"
- To follow or observe (a person) persistently, especially out of obsession or derangement
OK now that you know the meaning of stalker. What is ur judgement? Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Obviously its bad right. Am I a bad person? Ok nobody is perfect, I do had my bad point. But am I really a bad person? "To follow or observe a person persistently" Am I following Liz around? Am I observing her 24hours a day? Ask yourself this 2 questions.
It is true that I keep sms and conversations from her. Why? It is because of obsession? Again do you know the meaning of obsession?
"Obsession"
- Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
Am I obsessed with this girl? You ask me. Now obsess is a rather deep word. If I were obsess with her. Wouldnt I be keepin tabs on her? Everyday I would know where she goes, what she eats, what she does. Now do i do that? Plus I dont even know her address more of less know her father's name. Ok I do know where she stays but i dunno her address. I know that her father works at the cable car station and nothing more. Now the reason why I keep her sms and the conversations. For the simple reasons of memories sake. I'll never know when is the last time Im gonna chat or sms her. It is true that I like her. Im sorry if you have to read all this again Liz. But it has to come out. I cant stand being call a stalker or havin an obsession. Even if it comes from my bestfriends. I dont want to blow up right at that point when they call me those. First I would be makin a scene, second I dont like to argue or fight, third they are my frens I know that they mean no harm Lastly I come from a good family whom hav thought me good values and I dont want to shame them. I keep quiet and dont show my emotions. But there is a limit to my endurance to all these nonsense. So please before you guys say anything please once or twice is ok. But when everyone starts to call me that......
We friends know the true story and know that its a joke. But how about other people who hears this. What would they think of me? They dunno the story behind it. So please, it effects me and my family. I dont mind being the victim, but if my family is involve. No matter if ur my bestfriend or you saved my life once, you hav to deal with the concequenses.
So guys I hope you understand.
To Din, Fiz, Mif and the rest of my tkd bros. Sorry if I had offend you guys in anyway. And if you guys ever think of callin me or rather anyone the "S" word. Please think twice.
To Liz. I know that you dont like to read bout yourself here, but things are gettin outta hand and I had to settle it. I guess from what I wrote you might hav realise something. Anyway, I would like to apologise If i had offended you again. from this entry. I knoe you meant no harm. But there's a limit to one's tolerance. You should understand this more than anyone else, aye?
So thats bout it for this entry. will blog in soon. ciao
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Arrived at 11, but couldnt find a parking lot at carpark F2. There seem to be a lot of people today due to the public holiday. In the end we had to change our destination to Carpark D2. The toilet aint as nice as at F2 though, but still its better than havin none. Set up the tent and the bbq pit. Syarah couldnt wait to swim so she went in first with Wak Abbas. At least there is someone to look out for her. Dad, Pak Wee and Me started the fire. Forgot to check for firestarters so we end up with only 1. But we manage to set it up. Had to get back to basics. Used coconut husk and anything thats burns easily.
Ate first before taking a plunge. Waited for Abang Hamza. Soon both of us plus my sisters and Abang Ain were splashing away. Kak Ana couldnt join us since she's in her 7 months pregnantcy. Mom, Mak Lim and Mak Nyah just sat and ate at the tent area. We had fun. Abang Hamza was his funny self. Always making fun and jokes to make us laugh. Actually we make a good pair. Me and him. He does part time Dj during wedding ceremonies and also at Malay village during the weekends. We gave me his card and ask me along to help him with his DJ-ing. Sounds like a good idea so I agreed plus I could use some extra income. Ok back to ECP.
We swam, eat, swam, eat and swam. Practically thats wat we did the whole day. Except the time they buried me and turned me into a mermaid haha. You can check out the pictures taken thru the link below under pictures. Not much pictures though. Mom wasnt a good photographer plus i was busy swimmin and eating hehe. Around 4plus decided that we had enough plus the foods almost gone. So we showered and changed. Was already clean and fresh when Dad asked me to clean the BBQ pit. Now this is when I get really pissed. I was wearing jeans and a white polo tee. Plus i tot we could wash it in the toilet but scared the debries would choked up the sink, So dad told me to wash it in the ocean. Not one to argue so I took the whole pit down to the sea. Rolled up my jeans and started scrubbing the pit with the sand and rinse it with the salt water. I guess the sea wasnt that forgiving. They splash we with full force. The bottom part of my jeans were fully wet and My white tee were covered with brown spots due to the dirt mixing with the water. Was damn frustrated. Luckily I had an extra t-shirt underneath. Took the pit back up shore. Abang Hamza saw my expression and quicky help, Dad too. I heard someone said I look frustrated. And Damn right they are. Change to my extra t shirt. But had to go home in my wet jeans No choice bout it.
Bade farewell to my cousins and Aunties and headed home. Dad asked whether we wanted to go for an early dinner. I didnt say anything. Sensing my predicament, they decided to head home. Well reached home showere again and now felt fresh again. Watched Ghostbusters 2 and now updating my blog. Fiz msg me. Well Fiz I think ur handle urslef ok with the conversation. There's nothing wrong with your answers. Liz too msg me. To you my dear there's no need to apologise. Now it seems everyone thinks im a stalker. I know that you mean no harm in askin "why? Nak stalk ke?" those were your exact words. To prove it i still have the sms. But let me tell you, in fact not you only ah to everyone who knows me. Do you know the meaning of "Stalker" here let me tell you
"Stalker"
- One who Stalks
and what is "Stalk"
- To follow or observe (a person) persistently, especially out of obsession or derangement
OK now that you know the meaning of stalker. What is ur judgement? Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Obviously its bad right. Am I a bad person? Ok nobody is perfect, I do had my bad point. But am I really a bad person? "To follow or observe a person persistently" Am I following Liz around? Am I observing her 24hours a day? Ask yourself this 2 questions.
It is true that I keep sms and conversations from her. Why? It is because of obsession? Again do you know the meaning of obsession?
"Obsession"
- Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
Am I obsessed with this girl? You ask me. Now obsess is a rather deep word. If I were obsess with her. Wouldnt I be keepin tabs on her? Everyday I would know where she goes, what she eats, what she does. Now do i do that? Plus I dont even know her address more of less know her father's name. Ok I do know where she stays but i dunno her address. I know that her father works at the cable car station and nothing more. Now the reason why I keep her sms and the conversations. For the simple reasons of memories sake. I'll never know when is the last time Im gonna chat or sms her. It is true that I like her. Im sorry if you have to read all this again Liz. But it has to come out. I cant stand being call a stalker or havin an obsession. Even if it comes from my bestfriends. I dont want to blow up right at that point when they call me those. First I would be makin a scene, second I dont like to argue or fight, third they are my frens I know that they mean no harm Lastly I come from a good family whom hav thought me good values and I dont want to shame them. I keep quiet and dont show my emotions. But there is a limit to my endurance to all these nonsense. So please before you guys say anything please once or twice is ok. But when everyone starts to call me that......
We friends know the true story and know that its a joke. But how about other people who hears this. What would they think of me? They dunno the story behind it. So please, it effects me and my family. I dont mind being the victim, but if my family is involve. No matter if ur my bestfriend or you saved my life once, you hav to deal with the concequenses.
So guys I hope you understand.
To Din, Fiz, Mif and the rest of my tkd bros. Sorry if I had offend you guys in anyway. And if you guys ever think of callin me or rather anyone the "S" word. Please think twice.
To Liz. I know that you dont like to read bout yourself here, but things are gettin outta hand and I had to settle it. I guess from what I wrote you might hav realise something. Anyway, I would like to apologise If i had offended you again. from this entry. I knoe you meant no harm. But there's a limit to one's tolerance. You should understand this more than anyone else, aye?
So thats bout it for this entry. will blog in soon. ciao
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