Woke up as usual. Faced the dreaded cold shower. Hand in my AutoCAD assignment today. Stress up because off the WTC test. Did some last minute adjustment with my group members in the dying minutes before the paper. After the paper, felt high. Was crazy can tell. Even Munir commented my over hyperness. Had lunch, dunno what to eat. So decided to go with the flow. They ordered Chicken Rice but when it was my turn to order, Bee Hoon Soto came out. Always last minute changes. After lunch, was walkin towards class, saw "her" with her frens happily eating and laughing. Its good to see her so happy. But cant help feelin so empty inside. So i looked away. Munir asked why the sudden quietness? I looked at him. Smiled and said nothing. A few minutes later, I manage to divert my mind back and i was myself again. Rong Kuan then came to the rescue by pulling something out of his bag. It was unexpected. It was the April's Issue of FHM. Aiight a good way to divert my thoughts. Cant really concentrate during PEEE lecture, started off with a day dream. Was jolted back by Munir. Then fatige came over me. Eyes were heavy.But i manage to hold on. Finish class early so had some time before IT starts. So Munir and I decided to pray Zohor first and slack at the T14 prayer area till class starts. Halfway thru, saw Chuan Heng leave. Then Rong Kuan. They arent going for IT it seems. Munir was tempted to leave too. I held my ground but later I succumb to him. Told our It lecturer we had to go off. So had our attendence taken and off we go. We didnt really go home. Instead, I wanted to drown my sorrows with something. So i suggested we go hav ice cream at macdonalds. So we did. I had 1 collosum cone and 1 large Sprite. Felt a little better after that. Cold but better. Nose started sniffling. Arh what the heck. Walk towards Dover. Saw Andrina at the bus stop. Now here is a beautiful girl sittin all alone waiting for the bus. In normal circumstances, I would hav gone up to her, chat for a while and maybe offer to sent her home. But "she" was lingering back in my mind plus the thought of Hadi (Andrina's boy) put me off. So I did the what normal guys do. Smile, wave goodbye and go off.
Was sleepy on the train. Had to stand. But somehow rather i seem to doze off. Almost fell. Lucky me. Or else i would have been the laughing stock. Reached home. Dump my bag and clothes aside. Showered, and straight to the comp to check for "the reply". None. As expected. What to do. Played Max Payne the whole day. Like 1 particular line. "You play, you pay. You bastard" Haha cool line.
Then stop playing to watch Police and Thief, Heartlanders, Incredible tales and Smallville. Damn, was sad to see Lana lying there and the helpless look on Clark's face when Lana said she would have to stay away from Clark. Haiz. Poor Clark and Poor Me. Like in the same position like that. I like the song in the end. Hurt by Johnny Cash. Found the lyrics and it kinda suits my day today. Going crazy and hurting myself all.
Aye im getting sleepy liao. Hadnt seen her online. Nah probably out late again. Haiz. Aiight gd nite people. ciao...
Johnny Cash - Hurt
i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
i wear my crown of thorns
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
i am still right here
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way
-blog out-
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